I have alot going on this weekend. Today I have to meet my Aunt Kitty for lunch as it's her birthday, I have to pick up Ashley and go to the mall, and then I am meeting Phillip to pick out his tux. I'm not sure what I'm doing tonight all I know is that it's something with Nils. Anyway, tommorow I am going to Kenny's to help Justin with the ( Read more... )

I cam home from school today around 12:00. I told mom that we had some drug assembly thing but really I just felt that being in that school for another minute would make me scream. I can't wait to get out of there! Im going shopping with Lindsay in a little while. Were off of school tommorow so I'm going to pick up my dress for the wedding. I' ( Read more... )

Everything has been relativley calm around here since Phillip agreed to go to prom with me. I got the most beautiful shoes. I'll post a picture when I have time. Im getting really really excited about Prom. Thunder is this weekend but I don't think I'm gonna go. It's not really my thing.

What makes me more angry and sad than anything is that Richard complains about not being liked for himself and such but he has someone who cares so much about him staring him in the face and he can't even see it.

So now Robbie can't go to prom with me either. At least I didn't get my hopes up. I guess I'll just ask Phillip.

The more I think about it, the more upset I get about Robbie leaving. I understand why he has to go and I am so incredibly proud of him, but the fact that I won't see him for a really long time breaks my heart. I love him and if anything ever happened to him I honestly don't know what I would do. I refuse to think about it.

So Robbie gets shipped out to Iraq June 11 the day of Justin's wedding. This sucks, I will miss him so much. I have decided that I am afraid to let anything good happen to me because it seems like the bottom will inevitably fall out. It's not a pity party or anything, it's just the way I feel.

So my damn prom dress doesn't even fit. It took 6 weeks to get here and was specially tailored for me and it doesn't fit. I haven't gained weight, I know that. I have like 4 weeks until prom not 6, I have to take it back tommorow. I hate this. It's like it wasn't meant to be.

Last night I hung out with Richard and Nils and some other people. Sigh. His g/f was out of town so we were sort of flirting I guess? I don't know, it's been so long. Everytime he touches me I get happy and warm inside. Lame I know. We had a real talk for like the first time in a really long time and I felt special, like almost NEEDED. I am ( Read more... )

FIRST YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL QUIZ ( Read more... )