Well, life sometimes sucks and for me, it is a never-ending cycle of suckiness. However, I dream of a day where I will be to smile and no one can fuck it up. There will always be people who will stand in my way. There will always be people who want to destroy me. I cried the most true tears today. I sat in the car and I prayed to God to lift this ( Read more... )

Well, I met Howie last night. It wasn't my idea. I was putting gas in my car and he shows up at the gas station I was at. I was looking at him like "uh.. what the.." Well, we ended up going out to Steak 'N Shake and talking. That was it. I don't feel ..totally the same about him. Yeah, I think he is hot and all but I don't even know if I like him ( Read more... )

Well, I'm working all the time now. I'm so FUCKING TIRED OF WORKING!!!!!.... Okay anyway, I'm tired. I work the rest of the week with NO days off. I'm like >_>; Gots to be kidding.. My mom says I don't have to work all this much. Hello? Yes I do. No one else is going to pay for my stuff. And I think my mom likes that I'm not in her account anymore ( Read more... )

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I have figured it all out. I think I have finally managed to figure out why things have gone so wrong. I have figured out that it isn't me, it is him. I have also figured out that he is seeing the past everyday of his life and he always takes his anger out on me because when he looks at me, he sees the past, don't ask me why! I have figured it all ( Read more... )

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I just got back from Holiday World and it's been really good. Well, unfortunately, I have to work tomorrow at 9:30 in the friggin' morning. @__@; Haha, I saw Howie at Pizza Hut. I'm boycotting that Pizza Hut because I'm scared he'll poison my food. @__@;; Hm, well I'm going to bed... There is nothing and no one to talk to now. Goodnight.

I'm sleeping. I feel like I'm just sleeping until I can wake up. I'm living but then sometimes I feel like I'm not alive. It's weird. I sometimes wonder if I'm depressed. I wonder if my mind sometimes dies and when I need to be alive, it does. *taps chin* Who knows. I read this article telling me that if your parents are depressed, you are likely ( Read more... )

I wish I could find the guy who will like me for who I am. I listen to this song and it is really funny. You can read the lyrics if you like ( Read more... )

protective Crabs have a hard shell and a soft, sensitive inside. You tend to take your relationships quite seriously, and although you have high ideals, you'll choose a partner who is authentic, though imperfect, over an unrealizable dream lover. You do, however, have your fantasies, especially this year as imaginative Neptune opposes the "make it ( Read more... )