this is bascially me just talking and getting things off my chest. so if you wan to read you can. but you probably wont understand.
confusion sucks!! i hate it.
i wanna forget... i want to erase it... i want the place gone... i dont want to be scared...
i dont think anyone can understand and i dont think i really want anyone too.  it is like ( Read more... )

so why does it feel like whenever i am trying my hardest and trying to do something good it bites me in the butt ( Read more... )

i want matthew to come back!!
someone that i can talk too and he will understand.
someone that can hug me and say everything is okay.
someone i can sry to and make me feel better.
why did he have to leave?

so nothing really happening in my life just some thinking about things. my car isnt going to get painted cuz the guys doesnt have any power and that was the highlight of my weekend.  i am just wondering... why do people put them selfs through so much when it is all over something so small? and i guess people dont realize it until they actually look ( Read more... )

this hurricane has been making everyone stressed out... well mostly my gparents cuz there floating dock came off the pillings and hit the neighbors dock and his is messed up. so matthew, me, mom, gpa, and others got into the river...which was pretty fun cuz there was huge waves hitting us(i guess you had to be there)...and moved it over and then ( Read more... )

been working on car for the past 2 days and got alot done. have to find the number of the guy who is going to paint my car and then it will get painted. have to do alot of homework and i really dont want too. hows is everyone else doing. having fun hopefully. can wait to see everyone tuesday and dont forget picture day!! what fun. well its short ( Read more... )

Lying here with you ( Read more... )

this week has been fun. guy finally got my car fixed so that should be done in a week. tests suck.hopefully i did good on the fill in the blank test today. other then that, this week went a whole lot better then last week, let me tell you. i took a step back and looked. need to do that more often. went to dinner last night with my mom and then went ( Read more... )

got back from UCF that place is pretty cool. matthews room mate made the room stink. but other than that is was fun seeing matthew again ( Read more... )

I WANT MY CAR!!

going down to orlando to see my brother and maybe shopping... depends on if my step mom wants to. but i really want to see matthew!!!