yea, I had to drop all my classes because I got stressed out and started ignoring them. I'm mad at myself but I can't dwell on it because then I'll just spend time beating up on myself instead of progressing. I also have catching up to do with wedding planning fortunately work is becoming less crazy for a week ( Read more... )

Getting my cervix frozen wasn't near as painful or scary as I feared. Was actually less pain then the biopsy. They basically did to my cervix what they do to freeze off a wart. And now Susan should fall off and I'll be back in four mouths to make sure all is well. Can't have sex until March 15th. Bitches better not be lining up at my door until

I snapped. All the things that are on my plate became too much for me. From the beginning I knew I was taking on a lot. But I was hopeful I could bare it and do it somehow. I should have known myself better then that. I'm still feeling over whelmed. I don't know where to start in recovering. I'm too hard on myself but at the same time I don't ( Read more... )

Got my girly bits results. Longs story short its progressing pretty fast. It would certainly turn to cancer. It's about half way there. Getting it removed asap. I will call my growth Susan. =D
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Yea, I'm horrible about exercising consistently. The longest I've ever done in one go is 3 months. Its a discipline thing and after a while I get sooooo board. Though with all of this failing I know that I'm truly only failing when I don't start over if I do stop. I feel a bit more optimistic this time. What made me stop last time was I inured my ( Read more... )

Just found out today that the executive chef at my work will be leaving, and soon. Which will probably mean a big shuffling of the staff, moving some people up a bit. I hope they don't externally hire a new chef. I think even a good one would take time to get a handle on our operation. And with a new Butler president and a remodel for the kitchen ( Read more... )

I just woke up to fine out that my car is dead.... very dead. And that my HPV is getting worse. I rely hope it doesn't get to point that they have to start removing bits. I'm okay, I'm going to the doctor. If this was ignored it could have very well turned to cancer, especially if I never got a pap until I was 30 ( Read more... )

Work was starting to annoy me and now that I'm back I feel a bit more appreciative of what I have. So the vacation was a good thing for certain. One thing I don't miss are the days I hardy get to see Sean save when he's asleep. Its now been two days. Unfortunately I know this is only a sample, school will only demand more at a latter date. I'm glad ( Read more... )

I'm bisexual. To my friends this is no secret. But I do avoid saying it to family and acquaintances even when it is pertinent to the conversation. It rarely comes up but when it does I feel my chest tighten and I feel a little ashamed when the moment passes. Its not the most important thing to me. I don't feel like I'm lying every day like somebody ( Read more... )

The house was packed full for the Holiday. All the beds in the house occupied. I felt crowded and had to be content to share any me time with another's presence. And it seems when I was getting used to it the house suddenly emptied. Even my parents have gone to Florida because of my grandmother's death which happened about a week before Christmas. ( Read more... )