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[lilmsvixen]

I talked to Aaron on the phone... I only called because I need to change my insurance but it's goign to be hard to change it with him as co-owner, and he has to be co-owner because the loan is in both of our names. So I called to tell him that I'm trying ot take myself off of his insurance and that I'll let him know tomorrow for sure

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[comitto]

he's definitely wavering... that's a good sign. i just hope he opens up to you, even though it's hard :-\

[lilmsvixen]

Yeah, he said he misses me and I said then what are you doing... I asked if he really wanted to see me dating other people and he said I'm not even thinking about that, and I said, well, that's something you should think about, because if you don't like the idea, that shows the feelings are still there, and then I accidentally started crying and he was like I have been thinking about it and maybe we can talk this weekend but you have to stop crying because that just makes me not want to talk at all. So I don't know if he said he wanted to talk because I was crying and that would mean that I would stop, or because he genuinely thinks we should talk. Or even if we do talk, if he'll say anything other than "it should be over."

[summonerluna]

Please please please don't get your hopes up too much over this...I think it's a good sign definitely, and I think, like what said before, that he's not going to realize how much he wants to be with you until he tries not being with you.
But I think you should definitely, at least as much as you can, not cry or get too upset when you're talking to him because emotions definitely get in the way of a conversation.
But him brining it up I think is a sign that he has been thinking, and I think he might be starting to realize the long term effects of you two breaking up...what you were thinking about from the beginning that he hadn't considered yet.
Call me tonight if you need to. *hugs*

[lilmsvixen]

I'm really trying not to get my hopes up because he sounds so deadset. But I just can't believe that everything WE wanted together is just over in a flash. It's hard to take in, and I just keep wishing I could pinch myself and find out it was alll a dream.

[igetupagain]

Was he on the lease for the apartment too? Or just you?

It's good that he wants to talk, the biggest thing is to make sure you try to keep a clear head and don't get arguementative. The more you are willing to open up without being needy, the more he may open up to you. *big hugs*

[lilmsvixen]

I'm not sure if he REALLY wants to talk. He said that even if we do, he's not really sure how much it will help. I'm trying to not be argumentative and not to call him all the time, but every time I think of a memory that we can never experience again if it's all over, I have to force myself to keep from picking up the phone to remind him of it. I feel like he's not remembering any of that stff!

The apartment is only a month-by-month. One of us will probably keep it, I'm just not sure who yet.