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I am proud of myself. I bought this new compact portable storage thing from Best Buy the day i got the notebook comp and i didn't really think about opening until college or whatever but tonight i got this brilliant idea of using it to transfer my old pictures, songs, etc to the new comp. and what do you know? it worked great. within 4 min, everything was on my new computer. Another kick ass investment made by me.
I don't know the last time i updated but i hung out w/ Brandon on Thursday. Fun as always. We ate Chili's (on him) and watched The Day After Tomorrow on me. While at chilis there was the guy next to us who is a waiter there i always used to gawk at when i ate there w/ Amy or Shoni (the blonde guy w/ longish hair). Funny stuff. I love watching movies w/ Brandon. He makes all the sad parts hillarious with his sarcastic comments.
I love Applebees. I don't know how many i have to mention it. Wednesday it was dead and all my few tables were extremely sweet and gave me nice tips. At one point Andy's parents were there. I was so red-faced at first because it had been sooo long since i saw them--- August of 03. They haven't changed a bit. Over the year i missed them so it was pretty awesome being able to chat with them. Whether they feel like that is their own opinion but at least i was happy. This other table let me watch The Simple Life 2 with them. We were all making fun of it. The family is originally from Brooksville (near tampa) and that was a stop in the show.
Tonight was much busier but everyone was still really cool... well mostly. This one couple was odd. They kept giving me strange looks when i'd ask them questions and i think they thought i was dumb. idk they were pretty rude in their own way. This other table i had was great. There were 3 people ( a lady and two guys). The guy didn't like how his food looked because it was too plain compared to the others. So i brought him a small plate w/ two cucumber "eyes" and a tomato smile. I decorated his plate and the couple was laughing histarically. tipped very nicely too... don't know why, i was just trying to cheer the guy up.
Kim (Jessica McClintock) and Josh (UPS)-reg customers are my favorite. They graduated from Paxon 3 years ago and have some interesting peers who hide engagements and even cars from their parents.
so enough of work: How am I feeling, really feeling... kinda lonely actually. i don't have anyone to talk to besides my journal. I'm even starting to confide a one or two of my coworkers. Idk. Since Amy works more than me, i really don't have a person to spill my true thoughts. I don't like talking about the inner workings of chaos known as my mind. Yeah most of my entries are full of happy things but thats just daily "today i..." thats not "I feeel like this..." and i feel like i would be burdening anyone by telling them why i'm not happy. I keep those things bottled up. I always have and i probably always will.
I'm weak, i can't buck up. i'm a bit of a pushover. i'm delerious because its almost 6am and i haven't slept at all.
and my boyfriend is insanely possessive and i don't know how i am supposed to deal with that. I talk and he yells. I explain and he gets mad. But besides that, we're just dandy... really we are....
I can't wait til my two vacations--- St. Augustine: Monday-Thursday
Orlando: Saturday-Wednesday.
maybe i can clear my head and think a bit more normally.