I have found a new way to deal with the situation i find myself in. I am going to take everyday as it comes and live like it were my last. I am not gonna let this get me down, yeah i have my days but im not gonna let them pull me farther down than i already am. I am excited because im talkin to this guy. He is awesome and i really really like him. ( Read more... )

Hey ya'll! I'm glad today i had a good day, i am so glad i didn't have another bad day i was gettin tired of those. Well not much is goin on here. I'm excited cause ben and paul are supposed to be comin up friday to hang out with me this weekend!! yay!!! i thought since today is a good day and i'm just goofin off on the internet i'd put some pics ( Read more... )

I guess its getting close to the time i move on. Everyone is tellin me that i need to move on, even my mom which means it probably is time to move on. It is gonna take a while. Right now im just lonely and i just want someone to cuddle with and i don't know but ya'll get the picture, or at least i hope. I can't wait until my boys come up to visit ( Read more... )

I am so tired of being worn out emotionally and just weak. I just got off of the phone with Kristy and she finally told me everything that her and wesley talked about on the phone the other night when he told her off and was so mean to her. She said that she didn't want to tell me but that i needed to know. I'm so upset i don't know what to do. ( Read more... )

I had another dream about Scott last night. It was a good one i guess but it was weird just like most of the other ones. In this dream scott was awake and alert and he had is leg. He had woken up and i hadn't seen him yet. I went to find him and crying i found him, his back was turned so i said hey i haven't seen you in a while and he turned around ( Read more... )

It's been a while since i got on here and wrote how i really felt. I'm surprised at how long it's been truthfully, just because i have been going through so much since february. I know now after going to mobile and seeing scott that i am realizing that this is all real and i didn't realize how real this was until now. Before i just kept telling ( Read more... )

I just got home from mobile last night. The second i got in the car to leave mobile though i missed everyone already especially paul and ben!!! haha! i love you guys!! i definitely got a lot closer to ben and paul and seth for sure especially paul and ben. I had fun! i went to dauphin island and gulf shores some and i went shopping alot. haha! i ( Read more... )

I am so excited! Well, except for the fact that i have to take my precal exam and i have to make like a perfect grade on it or i could probably fail the class. That wouldn't be good cause then i would have to go to summer school and yeah thats depressing so i am gonna quit talkin about it now. I have like almost 2 days left until i go to hang with ( Read more... )

Today was my last full day of high school ever! Its kind of sad but kind of like super neato at the same time. Today was my last day in art, my last day at lunch with all of my homies, my last day in spanish! It wasn't that sad though!! haha!! I was in a fender bender! hehe! I hate that road 11 because after school the road is like packed and ( Read more... )

I know the subject is stupid but whatever! I'm like super hyper! I can't wait until next wednesday! I am going to mobile to be with rachel and earl (bubba) and all my homies!!! yay!!! Rachel and I decided that Bubba is gonna come pick me up in greenville and Rachel is going along for the ride! haha! We are gonna 3-way Bubba tonight and talk to him ( Read more... )