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[lilsecretbox]

i think i have lost all emotion reguarding death since i started this job 2 years ago. yesterday, i went to go meet with a Consumer at NH to do an assessment and they died 8 minutes before I got there. What was the first thing I thought to myself? Well, I guess my quota will be down for the week. People around me who I know, or know through

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[butterfly789]

Hey Kristen. I totally get what you are saying. It is seriously one of my biggest fears, becoming jaded. Sometimes I would sit in a session with someone who was telling me, yes I was beat with a hammer and screamed at for hours and I used to just say "uh huh, yes. And when did this happen?" Just trying to get to the bottom or something. Then I lost a beuaitful young and vibrant 18 year old student in an emotional support group of mine, and I said I can't do this anymore or I'm going to end it all. But what Alyssa's death brought to/gave to me was a heightened sense of why I am doing the work that I do. It's hard to see sometimes, but it is truthfully important work that we do. Stay committed to yourself first and foremost, and keeping yourself emotionally healthy. If you can do that, you know you can do your best work. If it is weighing on your too heavily that you can no longer take care of yourself, move on to another type of work. Regardless, have people surrounding you to build you up and love and support you. I had a beautiful