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So I've decided today that after sitting in sociology, looking at Matthew Robert && then gettin made his partner, then almost blurting out that I Love him that I cant do this nemore...I have been in love with this kid now for 2 years and I cant take it nemore...Every time I see him it hurts even more and I keep almost telling him that he is my world....I have 2 options -- I can either tell him and proly be an asshole since he has a gf rite now, or I can just not talk to him that much nemore...and both are going to kill me...Seeing him is the best part of my day -- it is the only time I am truly happy! I long for his hugs and his big cheek or forehead kisses....I love when he tells me he loves me and that I am the love of his life...and not to sound like a typical bitch girl but I love it when he tells me he cant stand his gf and doesnt know why he's with her...It's kinda like hello -- if u dont know why ur wit her then doesnt that tell u something? It seems like he doenst see that the one thing he needs is standing rite in front of him and I know I shuld walk away and hope that he notices I am what he needs but I cant get myself to do that just yet...I try -- really I do...but its hard and I seriously do love him more than nething....I still get that butterfly feelingg when I see him, talk to him or think about him...A smile is always on my face those times too....Everyone can see that he lites up my face and he lites up my life! Nothing else in the world matters when he is around...I never thought it was possible to love someone this much! Errrr why cant things be different?
--Why are you all I ever think about?