A Half

Feb 15, 2009 02:22

Title: A Half
Author: Yue
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: "i can be happy with a half of you"

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그래도 널 사랑해 너만 사랑해
geuraedo neol saranghae neoman saranghae
반쪽만 가져도 행복할 수 있어
banjjongman gajyeodo haengbokhal su isseo
조금 늦은 내 사랑이 전부 잘못이고
jogeum neujeun nae sarangi jeonbu jalmosigo

but i love you,
i only love you
i can be happy with a half of you
my love, a little late, is my fault
you couldn't help with that
you couldn't help with that
hmm...
Hwayobi - A Half

you stand outside of his apartment door, pain crushing you unwillingly as you had heard the pleasurable cries coming from inside. The thoughts of doubt ran through your mind, was it because you were a man? or was it because it was wrong in the eyes of another human being? This you did not know, and you wondered, would you have liked the truth either way? Your hurt heart tears out at frustration and the streaming tears are crying deep inside as your face is stoned solid in deep contemplation. Were you not so happy in love not too long ago? But you've only brought forth your own misery when you've missed the chance of ever telling him those three simple words.

the flashing moments of his smiles towards seem like an illusion now, far and distant, never really existing except for in the mind of your own subconscious. Tears well up at your eyes as you stay standing in front of that door, but you blink back the tears and press a massaging hand to your temples. Your back meets the harshness of the wall and the echo of nothingness as those moans got louder with each passing second. You felt like he was the one, the one you made you complete in every way, but you thought again, maybe it was just you.

the stabs of pain fill you as your hands clutched the aching pains. You still loved him, even if he didn't love you back. You still wanted him, and deeply within yourself, you wondered, even if you couldn't have his heart, his love, couldn't be his everything, would it be ok if he became yours? You were like a selfish animal at the moment, prowling on territory that wasn't its own and stealing it away from the rightful person. You wish you had another chance, but that would be just another selfish request, were it not? Even if it was just a part of him, you knew you'd be happy. You just wanted him with you.

You still loved him and even if you couldn't have his heart, you still wanted a piece of him, even if it meant hurting you in the process. You love him, you love him, and for you, that was more than what you could ever ask for. That was a half of your love, and that was more than enough.

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Author's Note: A little bit late for Valentine's Day ^^;;


nevertheless i hope you enjoyed it as it was inspired by Hwayobi's new song, A Half.

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