damage of the day:
-feel like shit
-call mom, semi-arguement
-failed chem test
-ruined only pantsss i like
-there's only one cig left, i have $1

tonight's plans:
-self hatred followed by a little
-inner yelling at self for mishaps of the day
-and beating myself up about all the little things
-100 crunches, 50 reverse crunches.

this week ( Read more... )

chem test in about 1/2 hour. i finally feel a little bit better, a handful of pills later ( Read more... )

fuck.

' pretty people ' - dexter freebish ( Read more... )

so my plan this past week started out well. and then it kind of fizzled, and ended up just completely out of hand. ..especially last night and today.

but this next week i'm gonna do it. and i'm gonna do it well. because, well...mike is coming up this weekend. or at least...i really really really hope he is ( Read more... )

tonight i gave away my popcorn (i left it as a present on amar's bed) & my bugels (thanks to vivas ( Read more... )

i don't know where i'm going, or what i'm doing ( Read more... )

let's see how long i stay sane this break.
-already my mom is restricting my peoria trips.
-plus i owe the city of peoria $75 because i accidentally forgot to turn on my lights. it's not like you can't see with the city lights ( Read more... )

it's a sad state of maturity to realize that a kiss doesn't fix all your problems anymore.

i've known this for some time, but it hits me like a slap in the face every day now.

this is what's on my mind right now, and no one's around to talk with, i need to let this out ( Read more... )