Life is not what I thought it was, 24 hours ago...
I'll seperate this into a few cuts because I have a few different subjects that I want to talk about and you can only read ones that look interesting if you want.
I've been feeling so disconnected lately. From my friends. From God. From my family. Ha, I can't believe I just put the word God in my Lj. I don't like to talk about Him much, funny that I would be so shy about something that is such a big part of my life. But I just don't feel it. I know He's there, I don't doubt anymore, I'm past that. In a way that gives me a nice peace that makes this just barely bearable. I'm just doing too okay. Not that great, but I need him more when I'm really doing crappy, and that's when I feel most...human? I guess it would make sense that I feel more human when I'm closer to God.
I love BCC but it's so stressful which worries me since we're only a 1 1/2 months into school. The classes are so interesting and its helping me mature alot (though I'm not sure if I want to) The one really bad thing is that I'm SO disconnected from my friends at school because I'm never there. Seriously, it's really hard because when I am at IHS it's like...what do you talk about? "hey, how's it going?" "not bad" "cool, bye" "bye" oh it makes me so mad! but I can't really do anything about it. I need help, know how you can help me? hang out with me this weekend! I'm actually skipping a youth group retreat cuz I just need time to relax, seriously, somebody want to come get coffee with me? I hope I get a reply or I will be quite sad.
I guess I've also kinda been disconnected from friends ever since Nick came up here. I absolutely LOVE having him here and I feel so lucky that I get to see him everyday. We've already had to tackle some changes between us...it's just so different from a long-distance relationship, but he adds stability to my life that I crave so much. The only problem is that he doesn't have a car and he doesn't know hardly anybody up here so I end up driving him alot and we hang out alot (besides the fact that that's just what boyfriends and girlfriends do) and I shouldn't be complaining. I mean I got an amazing guy...not everybody can say that....not even very many can say that. It just takes away from time that I'd usually spend with my girlfriends.
I just need to learn that I can't do everything.
Okay, i'm almost ashamed to admit that I went to the Switchfoot concert at The Moore but it was SO amazing. I will make a bulleted list for your viewing pleasure.
Honorary Title:
-really cute bassist/keyboard player, only like a year older than us...he looked so out of it on stage. Good energy. Tight pants. Hard to understand what they were saying.
-talked to bassist/keyboard player after the concert, his name is aaron, but i think he spells is "Arin" don't know, but he signed a sticker for me and we sorta talked about piano for a minute.
The Format:
-Liked them mucho. The lead singer looked like Aerosmith. Would have gotten a guitar pick if the stupid 5th grade boys hadn't jumped up and grabbed it. I want their CD now.
-Also talked to lead singer afterwards. His name was mario or somehthing but he was really nice, i told him i liked their band alot. Signed my ticket and drew a moustache and a hat on the picture.
-They were from Arizona.
Switchfoot:
-We were in the very front row with our arms resting on the stage it was awesome we were leaning against the speakers and our clothes were vibrating.
-Switchfoot is so much better in concert than on their cd, i have a new respect for them.
-Me and Kels kept making eye contact with the Bass player, Tim, and he was nodding at us. (can I get a collective swoon for rockstars?)
-Really liked how when they did Gone everybody sang the part about Al Pacino and the band cut out...that was fun.
-sad they didn't do any old stuff, like "New Way to be Human"
-John (the lead singer) crowd surfed..that was fun.
-My favorite songs of theirs in concert were: (basically all of them, but here's a few) On fire, 24, Adding to the Noise, Gone, Meant to Live, Dare you to Move.
-During Meant to Live John came over and grabbed my hand and I gabbed his thigh and he looked right down at me and Katie and his sweat got all over my face. mmm...rockstar sweat. Then he started climbing the wall while he was singing...just like spiderman, definitely the highlight.
-Came back out and did Dare you to Move, that was amazing...
After the Concert:
We were walking outside and this guy was handing out fliers and I took one and kelsie goes, "OMIGOSH, it's RussellSquare!" and it was! it was Aaron. For those of you who don't know who Russell Square is, they're a band who i heard once and they dedicated a song to me and liz. They're playing at Graceland tonight at 7...you should all go. Anyway, so we reminded Aaron and he said, "Of course i remember you!" and gave us a big hug. So we talked a little bit and I said I was sorry for not being able to come to the concert tonight, and so it was so great to see them again.
Also...we were in the car and Katie was freaking out because John grabbed her hand (don't get me wrong, i thought it was cool, but she's obsessed) and we were saying how we bet Liz would have like it, and Kelsie mentioned that Liz said if she went she would cut off her own ears. All Katie could say was, "Doesn't she know he touches hands?!" AH!, I love katie!
I've been feeling so disconnected lately. From my friends. From God. From my family. Ha, I can't believe I just put the word God in my Lj. I don't like to talk about Him much, funny that I would be so shy about something that is such a big part of my life. But I just don't feel it. I know He's there, I don't doubt anymore, I'm past that. In a way that gives me a nice peace that makes this just barely bearable. I'm just doing too okay. Not that great, but I need him more when I'm really doing crappy, and that's when I feel most...human? I guess it would make sense that I feel more human when I'm closer to God.
I love BCC but it's so stressful which worries me since we're only a 1 1/2 months into school. The classes are so interesting and its helping me mature alot (though I'm not sure if I want to) The one really bad thing is that I'm SO disconnected from my friends at school because I'm never there. Seriously, it's really hard because when I am at IHS it's like...what do you talk about? "hey, how's it going?" "not bad" "cool, bye" "bye" oh it makes me so mad! but I can't really do anything about it. I need help, know how you can help me? hang out with me this weekend! I'm actually skipping a youth group retreat cuz I just need time to relax, seriously, somebody want to come get coffee with me? I hope I get a reply or I will be quite sad.
I guess I've also kinda been disconnected from friends ever since Nick came up here. I absolutely LOVE having him here and I feel so lucky that I get to see him everyday. We've already had to tackle some changes between us...it's just so different from a long-distance relationship, but he adds stability to my life that I crave so much. The only problem is that he doesn't have a car and he doesn't know hardly anybody up here so I end up driving him alot and we hang out alot (besides the fact that that's just what boyfriends and girlfriends do) and I shouldn't be complaining. I mean I got an amazing guy...not everybody can say that....not even very many can say that. It just takes away from time that I'd usually spend with my girlfriends.
I just need to learn that I can't do everything.
Okay, i'm almost ashamed to admit that I went to the Switchfoot concert at The Moore but it was SO amazing. I will make a bulleted list for your viewing pleasure.
Honorary Title:
-really cute bassist/keyboard player, only like a year older than us...he looked so out of it on stage. Good energy. Tight pants. Hard to understand what they were saying.
-talked to bassist/keyboard player after the concert, his name is aaron, but i think he spells is "Arin" don't know, but he signed a sticker for me and we sorta talked about piano for a minute.
The Format:
-Liked them mucho. The lead singer looked like Aerosmith. Would have gotten a guitar pick if the stupid 5th grade boys hadn't jumped up and grabbed it. I want their CD now.
-Also talked to lead singer afterwards. His name was mario or somehthing but he was really nice, i told him i liked their band alot. Signed my ticket and drew a moustache and a hat on the picture.
-They were from Arizona.
Switchfoot:
-We were in the very front row with our arms resting on the stage it was awesome we were leaning against the speakers and our clothes were vibrating.
-Switchfoot is so much better in concert than on their cd, i have a new respect for them.
-Me and Kels kept making eye contact with the Bass player, Tim, and he was nodding at us. (can I get a collective swoon for rockstars?)
-Really liked how when they did Gone everybody sang the part about Al Pacino and the band cut out...that was fun.
-sad they didn't do any old stuff, like "New Way to be Human"
-John (the lead singer) crowd surfed..that was fun.
-My favorite songs of theirs in concert were: (basically all of them, but here's a few) On fire, 24, Adding to the Noise, Gone, Meant to Live, Dare you to Move.
-During Meant to Live John came over and grabbed my hand and I gabbed his thigh and he looked right down at me and Katie and his sweat got all over my face. mmm...rockstar sweat. Then he started climbing the wall while he was singing...just like spiderman, definitely the highlight.
-Came back out and did Dare you to Move, that was amazing...
After the Concert:
We were walking outside and this guy was handing out fliers and I took one and kelsie goes, "OMIGOSH, it's RussellSquare!" and it was! it was Aaron. For those of you who don't know who Russell Square is, they're a band who i heard once and they dedicated a song to me and liz. They're playing at Graceland tonight at 7...you should all go. Anyway, so we reminded Aaron and he said, "Of course i remember you!" and gave us a big hug. So we talked a little bit and I said I was sorry for not being able to come to the concert tonight, and so it was so great to see them again.
Also...we were in the car and Katie was freaking out because John grabbed her hand (don't get me wrong, i thought it was cool, but she's obsessed) and we were saying how we bet Liz would have like it, and Kelsie mentioned that Liz said if she went she would cut off her own ears. All Katie could say was, "Doesn't she know he touches hands?!" AH!, I love katie!