schools wrapping up! only five more blocks of each class. wow. becoming a freakin senior wtf. high school's gone by so ridiculously fast, and that makes me sad. i really feel like i missed out- i haven't had any of those classic high school experiences. no crazy parties, no bf, no dating at all even, NO CAR, hardly any adventure at all. i'm sure ( Read more... )

ring dance was alright. nothing special ( Read more... )

of course once i start to feel happy and optimistic again it all comes crashing down in a heap of flames. 
april 20 marks the end of the worst year of my life (so far). and its also the one year anniversary of cole's death. that's not a coincidence

hopefully this boston field trip, since its at the complete end of those dreadful 365 days, marks the ( Read more... )

say anything was amazing<3 ( Read more... )

for once i feel excited about choosing a college. i have a vague idea of what direction i want to go in, and thats a lot more than i had a year ago ( Read more... )

lots of thoughts.
too many->overwhelming

one year anniversary of daisy's death. feels like forever and a day ago, but also like yesterday. 
this anniversary also marks when everything started getting worse.

she died monday at 3:00. her heart stopped again.
leaving friday morning. 
private viewing friday.
big funeral saturday. 
home sunday.

love you. miss you.<3

dad flew out to oklahoma today. the doctors say grandmother might not make it. she had surgery on her breast bone a couple of days ago cause it broke from her moving around or something sometime after her heart surgery. after the breast bone surgery she got an infection in her blood, i forget what it was called. and today her heart stopped. they ( Read more... )

this whole weekend sucked for the most part. today i had the worst birthday. i asked for a car and i got a pair of earrings (which look exactly like some i bought from claires in a 6-pack) and fucking clothes for fucking tennis. wow mom and dad, this shows you know me so well. and of course the clothes were in this giant pink bag, getting me all ( Read more... )

99% sure i'm not getting a car for my birthday. bastards.