I hate this feeling, if you can call it a feeling. I'm completely numb inside. It's like someone gave my heart an anesthetic. I know i'm hurting, but i can't feel it. I know i'm lonely, but i can't feel it. i know I need to cry but i can't. People tell me things that normally i would pee my pants over and i can't even giggle. I am a shell of a ( Read more... )

I got called a slut the other day. By my "best friend". Three days after being called a "cunt bitch" by another stupid girl. And basically everyone hates me, and i feel ugly, which is, you know, always loads of fun. Could my life get any worse right now? I think not. Oh well, i'm going to Boulder on Friday to spend time with my ali. She invited me ( Read more... )

I really hate people. This may have something to do with my hangover plus my loneliness plus the fact that my math professor tried to make us sit in alphabetical order. I left.

today was the first day of classes. Seems like i'm gonna be bored a lot. Except in Psych, because Matt's crazy. Example: this convo about my old old roommates skankiness (not meghan ( Read more... )

I GOT ROBBED!!!
yep, somebody stole a crapload of my stuff last night...my lap top, my dvd player, and worst of all, my reeses pieces. yep, they stole my chocolate. I will kick them. Seriously though, it sucks.

Word of the day : oodles.

Everybody make up a holiday for us. (examples, pick your nose day, talk without moving your lips day)

ok, so the morning after my last post i wake up to a text from Jason "hey babe, i haven't forgotten about you, i've just been in ft collins with my uncle." i say ok, i work tonight, do you? he says yes and to come see him when i get off. it was the longest shift ever waiting to get off work, cuz i missed him. get over to his work, he's not there. ( Read more... )

Let me break down my week for you thus far ( Read more... )

ok so i went over to Jasons work to chill with him tonight and his ex comes in. So she starts doing that subtly bitch fight shit that only girls recognize but i know he's totally over her so i'm like whatever, you know. the whole night he and i were texting each other talking about how she should just go away. DAMN was she annoying. ah well....he's ( Read more... )

so, this may seem a bit sudden considering but i broke up with Jesse yesterday. I suppose i can be completely honest since this is a mostly anonymous thing. I wasn't happy, he wasn't giving me affection, or making me feel good about myself....so like this horrible person i am, i got it from somewhere else. His name is Jason and we get along really ( Read more... )

do ya'll know how not sexy i feel sleeping next to the same man every night and having him want me like every four nights? what's wrong with me? I even dressed up tonight FOR HIM and he didn't even say anything about my dress or anything.