It seems to me that people are constantly trying to test my patience. For any person it is certain that they have a breaking point. I have a lot of self control, but I often wonder what I would be like if I didn't. One day I would love to just let go, and just let everything out and stop bottling all my emotions and angier inside as I do. I think I ( Read more... )

Dearly beloved are you listening?
I can't remember a word that you were saying
Are we demented or am I disturbed?
The space that's in between insane and insecure
Oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
Am I retarded or am I just overjoyed
Nobody's perfect and I stand accused
For lack of a better word, and that's my best excuse

As I look back on the last couple of days i have realized several things. One, that i am dissasociating myself from a certain someone because of the parsitic way she treats people. Two, That someone has made me know that being me is the most important thing, and i should never change for someone else. Three, that a certain someone that I believe ( Read more... )

It has come to my attention that people are unwilling or unable to disassociate from past feelings. Not that feeling bad is wrong, but you need to know when to quite and just leave the person alone. I say this to be honest, when a person says they hate me or severly dislike me, it doesnt make me want to talk to them. So for that reason, i think i ( Read more... )

Well after all this, Everything is back to normal. All the fighting and turmoil has ended, and I couldn't be happier that it has. The lasted couple of days have been good for me. My brain has just now woken up so I am getting back into the swing of things. Last night, I went to Matt's party, which was pretty fun. We ate, hungout, played old school ( Read more... )

Well it has been another good day in a row of good days. This is most unexpected. I haven't felt this happy in some time so I'm pretty excited. Yesterday most of been, lets call Chad to do something with him day, or at least thats what it seemed to me. Normally nobody ever calls me to do stuff, however yesterday, I went to my friends house, and ( Read more... )

Today was a rather long day, I had to go to work at 10:00-5, and doing so, required me to actually get up. Not at all what i wanted to do. But alas i did, and it was just so long, I just wanted to jump off something really high up. After surviving work, Erin and I went to the mall, to pick up my awesome new watch, and see a movie. The movie was ( Read more... )

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I must tell my friends thank you for being concerned. I'm so glad that I have people like you in my life, I couldn't dream not having you so. I have been quite unhappy for sometime now, as you know, to let you know why, I'll tell you the whole story. It really has to do with Kristen and I. Throughout the entire summer I missed her with every ounce ( Read more... )

How many times most I sit in utter outrage and anger. This is been the most filled summer of turmoil I have ever experienced. I'm done with the games, and being ignored, it makes me so upset, I can't see straight. I'm done, I tried so hard and it didn't even matter, even when I did my best it just wasnt good enough. Well I give up, its not worth my ( Read more... )