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Nov 15, 2004 20:41

...dear lord...what have I said last night?
...okay, maybe I won't kill myself off, although I still get occasional recurring urges to do so. I don't know why, but I'll continue living on this earth, living... (>_But jeez, I'm still a failure at life! Fuckin' hell! I didn't try hard enough! I didn't try hard enough at school, I didn't try hard ( Read more... )

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downwardspiral2 November 16 2004, 18:10:17 UTC

Carl, listen, and listen well. Life has no errors, but rather rewrites. Life is a planned existance. rather not planned, but falls into place. These things were planned to happen. so you can learn from them. and how much would you value you yourself more if you learned it, made better, rather than doing it right the first time. the point im getting at is that things are more valuable if you work at it and then get it right. its life. And your not a falure. you have exceeded at many things in life that only we can dream of. Your a great keyboardist, wiz at math. and a very gifted individual in physical activities (ddr, dance maniax...and....NINJA!!!) Dont compare yourself to others. never do that. cuz you will never compare. and to look in the mirror, they will never compare to you. Its like trying to add apples and oranges. you just cant. cuz the apple isnt an orange, and the orange isnt an apple. you get two completly different numbers and groups. Understand, this is not like you to think like this. Your just ( ... )

linkcm November 16 2004, 21:21:30 UTC

Uhm...to be honest, me falling down in college was my own doing...I slacked, I couldn't motivate myself to do the work I should be doing.
And physical activities mean not much to me, for I don't think I'd need to utilize them in life.
But the rest of what you say is true, I'm starting to realize that.
And wow, I really do compare myself to others...I'm becoming a 1st place maniac. I need to work on that.

Stick, thank you. That's a good help.

I'm just not getting it... anonymous November 16 2004, 19:37:57 UTC

I don't know hwy you would ever conisder "killing yourself". Why? You have had a very successful life. You seem to think everything is riding on college and education...that is indeed not the case. You asked the question, and I would say that you do not have a rational right to think all of this rubbish. STOP TRYING TO PLEASE YOUR PARENTS AND TRY PLEASING YOURSELF! You never actually try and do that. It's always, "my parents", "my parents and "my parents"...try "myself ( ... )

Re: I'm just not getting it... linkcm November 16 2004, 23:40:42 UTC

Heh, I've considered killing myself numerous times before, but quickly got over each instance.
My parents want me to graduate college, and I think that's the right thing to expect from me. I...am not very used to thinking about what I want in life...but I can try, I'll give it a whirl.
No, I do not expect life to be perfect and error free...I just wish I hadn't gone down in college so harshly.
But other than that, thank you too, Stephen.
*brotherly hug*

Re: I'm just not getting it... jesuspwnz November 17 2004, 03:27:31 UTC

STOP TRYING TO PLEASE YOUR PARENTS AND TRY PLEASING YOURSELF!

See, Steve is with it. He gets it. You're an adult now and can do WHATEVER YOU WANT WITHOUT PLEASING YOUR PARENTS. What they want you to do is grow up to be a responsible man. They never said anything about how you do it.

ai_keki November 16 2004, 20:09:10 UTC

i dont wanan say anything long and all important sounding... so i will leave yo uwith this "have a cookie" :3nod:

linkcm November 16 2004, 23:43:34 UTC

lol and thank you for providing a smile on my face.
**trades the cookie for a huggie**

jesuspwnz November 17 2004, 03:24:33 UTC

I didn't try hard enough at school, I didn't try hard enough at home, I didn't try hard enough anywhere! What don't you people get about that? Or is it me? Am I just going insane?

Jeez man. No one else cares about your SMALL imperfections. I don't see any reason why you should.