It's not madness that you still think of her. Hell, I still think of me first ex from time to time. When you really loved someone it takes time for that hurt to go away.
Sorry I took so long to answer, bit of health issue besides my muddled head.
I don't know what I am, an ex, a future maybe etc. I do know that I need to sort things here first and I'm powerless to even get them moving along. Drives me crazier still.
Yet when I come to the end of that, will she be there, will she want me? Darned if I know. All I know is that I see a hundred things a day that I want to share with her.
We never touched except maybe in dreams. Maybe I believe too much in those?
Ah, too tricky though. I am locked into something that keeps dragging on, and she told me that until I'm free that we are just platonic. The more I try at this end, the more complex other things seem to get. She did tell me when we 'broke up' in December (if that's what it was) that she did not want a lover for maybe ten years. I'm not sure whether that's meant to be a gentle let down or what. The passion, the words, the feelings just seemed to evaporate at her end. I think, though I'm guessing, that somewhere she had a heart to heart with someone, and they told her I was nothing but an online charlatan or something. Sadly they could not have been farther from the truth. The emails I get these days are further and further apart, almost calculatingly so
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Sorry I took so long to answer, bit of health issue besides my muddled head.
I don't know what I am, an ex, a future maybe etc. I do know that I need to sort things here first and I'm powerless to even get them moving along. Drives me crazier still.
Yet when I come to the end of that, will she be there, will she want me? Darned if I know. All I know is that I see a hundred things a day that I want to share with her.
We never touched except maybe in dreams. Maybe I believe too much in those?
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Well, nothing happens unless you try to start it.
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