new beginnings

[lipbomb]

last night ryan and i got the crazy idea of getting a place together. at first i was a bit nervous at the idea. not nervous because i didn't trust my relationship with him, but more scared at other's opinions of this plan. shortly after, i realized that i really don't care if people react negatively toward this. even if there is only one thing

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[cynot3]

Vanessa, even if moving in together proves to be a mistake (it certainly was for my last love and I), it's one of the best experiences you can have. Just be prepared. Because when things get bad, they get really bad.

About him being the only stable thing in your life. Try your best to change that, that's dangerous.

I think the Dali Lama said.. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

I know I dont know you much at all, but i'm happy for you

[lipbomb]

Thank you for your advice Ben. I've lived with a significant other in the past, and definately know just how 'bad' things can get, but I also do know that this time is different in everyway possible. It's always a new task to combine your life with someone else, but it can also be a lot of fun. I am not going into this with an expectations or doubts, if i did, there'd be no excitement!

Unfortunately, my relationship is the only stable thing in my life, but that is my fault, and it is something that I am working on. As soon as I can get away from my mother's emotional abuse and constant critism, my sanity, self-confidence, and stability will return. I guess you could just say I've been on a hellish vacation from it!

Thanks for being :o) for me!

xo