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Mar 16, 2006 20:12

So today is a day of feelings destrction for me because I know that illusions will never change into something real ( Read more... )

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anabateman March 16 2006, 20:56:47 UTC
SONIA! no no no....you mustn't feel this way! You are a bright girl. While things may all seem wrong and upsetting, you drudge thru and better things will come.

I often feel like I have run outta luck, too. I'm sorry, hun.

I do lourve you and hope that things will get better thru your eyes.

lovelove
me

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lipgl00s_whore March 16 2006, 21:08:00 UTC
thank u SO MUCH for your support...
I feel lonely as hell.
I was always full of energy,smiling girl.
I'm not the same person anymore.
I EXTREMELY miss my dad.
I can't find a place for myself and I'm in pain because of this guy.
so sad.

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anabateman March 16 2006, 21:17:38 UTC
Yeah, your dad passing musta been the roughest thing ever. I remember how depressed you got when it happened. It's the shtytyest thing when shty happens. However, I think you dealt with the whole situation really well (I don't REALLY know but from what I gather in these journals).

Being lonely is a sucky feeling, indeed. I often feel alone, but I always make the best of it somehow. Hopefully you can do the same before it gets to you even more...cuz it always does.

Guys suck. My ex who I was in louuurve with ended up being gay...LOL...but hey...it's tragic when you invested soo much time and energy in it and loved them soOo very much. Shocking. For a time I swore off guys after finding out, and perhaps I still do, but I realize I am young and that I'll meet many more wonderful people...as you will tooo.

I'm all lecturing or something. haha...sorry if it seems that way. I r eally hope things get better for you, tho. You deserve to have some happiness with everything that has happened.

loove u

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lipgl00s_whore March 17 2006, 19:43:23 UTC
I just wanted to THANK YOU for all these words....it means so much to me! u have no idea how much!
I'm going thru real hell now and I need a lil bit of love,patience and aa person who'd be interested in me and my life.who would care.
I'm tryin' to act normal after my dad's death b/c I don't want people to think that i want them to u know, have mercy on me.but sometimes it's so hard.they don't understand that on a party or in school I act normal but when I'm getting home I'm depressed and I'm crying.people are weird sometimes.

I LOVE U GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<3333333333333

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candiicoated07 March 19 2006, 13:50:53 UTC
i hope you feel better soon sonia,
i hate seeing you feeling so awful.
2 years ago i hit an all time low of
my life and i felt like nothing would
ever be the same again & that i could
never be happy again, and i just pray
that you dont hit the low that i did
because it is not a fun expirience =(

i love you and take care, okay??

p.s. you still havent actually added me lol

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