I have been completely torn, but I talked to Mary today and decided that I am going to California to nanny for my aunt and uncle and their three kids.

After that, I saw the hugest rainbow I have ever seen in my life.

Dearest Zoe,

I feel like a squirrel collecting nuts for the winter, but I don't know where I will be in the winter. I am still collecting nuts though. And i know I will look back and think, "Nuts?? I don't even liiike nuts. Why didn't I collect muffins?"

Sincerely,
Jessica.

There are too many things to do, to be, to many places to go, things to see. There are too many colors and sounds, too many tastes and noises. There are too many emotions attached to those colors, sounds, those tastes and noises. There is too much in this world, and too much out of it. I keep thinking, I feel like but I can't complete the ( Read more... )

Also, 1. Reading over the last entry, it sounded very fiery! 2. I am sick of people telling me they are "seriously considering getting a passport and getting the hell out of America." Yeah, go ahead. Go have fun living in a third-world country without any human rights." (Okay, I am being bitter. Not all other countries are third-world ( Read more... )

We WILL rise above this because we ARE more than our president and America IS a fantastic country. Hope, guys. I am so glad so many of us are angry, sick to our stomachs, shaking our fists in the air. I am so happy we have fought for what we believe in. JUST BECAUSE THE ELECTION IS OVER DOESN'T MEAN WE HAVE TO STOP FIGHTING, STOP BELIEVING ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night that I visited Jen in Portland, but was afraid to drive in the city. But to do that, I had to drive to Roseburg and go fishing and then drive home. At my house, in the living room, there was a big bed in my living room, and I remember saying something self-deprecating or miserable to Matt (Johnson, not Vail) and I just ( Read more... )

Once upon a time, Jessica had friends, and they became sad. They had boyfriend/girlfriend troubles, depression, anxiety, melancholy, suicidal thoughts, family problems, eating disorders, and so many other things plaguing them. Once Jessica found out about this, all she wanted to do was to wrap them up safe from harm, but her hands are only so big ( Read more... )

You know when you look at a word so many times it feels wrong?

My life feels like that.
All of it.

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