im having the worst week ever! nathan left me for some drama filled, materalistic girl. i feel so awful, i feel like the biggest pile of shit there ever was. nothing i do will get him to come back. grr. at first i didnt think it was a big deal, oh ya ill get over him. but hes all i can think about and its driving me crazy. i have so many great ( Read more... )

i just got done reading A Child Called It. its a very sad story that really makes me think. if you havent read it yet, i totally recamend(spell) it. its about out of control child abuse and a childs struggle to survive. its really good

UNINTERSTED?! wtf!? how can you be UNINTERESTED!!!!! nathan is so stupid! hes being so GRRR! he told me is now uninterested in me now, we he doesnt want to be with me!? what an ass. he makes no sense!!!

wow!!! today was so much fun. i slept in, nathan came over and hung out. then we went to carls jr got some foods! (nathans a pig by the way)lol ya then we went to the driving range. i rock!! we bought new cds: Beastie Boys and Sugar Cult. ya then we came back to my house, now im alone with nothing to do while nathan is at work. haha but it was

i never use to cry at movies, and now something simple happens and i start bawling! haha i dont know why, im such a loser! haha

had a lot of fun yesterday. omg! i went to jamba juice(spell) and got the best drink in the whole world! its the pumpkin thingy that julie told me to get. it was awesome!!!!! i loved it!

( my new love )

went out with nathan and jenna. had a bunch of fun! cant wait to do that again. dont forget to call me again jenna. haha we need to talk

great boyfriend, horrible friend.

i cant describe how much pain i feel right now. today i told nathan to make a choice: be my boyfriend, or he cant have me at all. wow that totally backfired on me. so now im depressed, cant stop crying, angery, and a whole bunch of other emotions right now. i was just so sick of hooking up with him without him being my boyfrined, or showing any ( Read more... )

i had a lot of fun today. angela came over and we watched like half an hour of the goonies *totally awesome movie, which angela has never seen* then we went in my room for 2 hours and listened to music. it was fun! thanks angela! we gotta hang out again soon!

( my day )