I have not journaled for the longest time. Its been over a month since my last post... I’m just sitting here right now, in my new 3rd hour class: study hall. Instead of taking Government AP, I decided to take regular, which only a zero hour was available. So, that left me a 3rd hour open, which I decided I could take study hall, catch up on my ( Read more... )

What a last few weeks it has been for me with school and everything. Finals are still after break, which is a total drag because all of our teachers treated us like we still had finals. Ugh... No matter. I’ll bring myself through this meticulous and monotonous scheduling ordeal and eventually see the end of this long semester. A question remains in ( Read more... )

This weekend has been probably the busiest and most enjoyable weekend in... well... a long while. Every minute was filled and frankly right now... I quote from someone way more poetic and elegant than I... I feel expired. Friday was Ashley’s Masquerade party, Saturday was Saman’s 18th birthday party, and then Sunday, I had to help Mom prepare for ( Read more... )

I hate helping mom with her school. I try. I do my best. I help her as best as I can. I try to explain things as easily as I can... but it never seems to work out the right way or the way I intend it to. Every single time I try to help Mom with chemistry, she doesn’t get what I say... it’s not what the teacher does... she never understands it... ( Read more... )

just keeping things in check... it’s not that I have stopped journaling any more, because that is far from it. I journal, but what I journal tends to be more personal and private. It’s not my place to share what I write about, but it’s also my place to not forget it either ( Read more... )

So Jackie’s homecoming is tomorrow, which I’m pretty excited about. I’ve looked forward to this for about 2 weeks so far, ever since Shay called me to tell me about asking Jackie out. This time, I actually asked out a girl to homecoming how you’re supposed to... :-) I went to her house while she was at work, with 200 balloons, a balloon pump, ( Read more... )

Too much time since I’ve journaled... as always, I have nobody else to blame but myself, which is fine with me, as it has to be. If not, then who would I complain to? School, school, school... for like the last month and beyond. It doesn’t feel like it’s already been a month or so since school started, especially because so much has happened in the ( Read more... )

Actually I take it back, I'll never understand anything in life, but I can only learn to accept it and know that no matter how much I dream, how much I hope, how much I think about it... nothing will ever change. I can grow and learn, and I can accept what I see, and accept what I hear... but my dreams are my own... and than is nothing that will ( Read more... )

I’m just so preoccupied with everything that’s going on in my life right now. aka, my life = school... as sad as it is. I wish I had another life... but I don’t. And I saw the family I had, the people I go to school with. Even though they don’t know me, and I don’t feel close to them, they are really a family of mine ( Read more... )

Well, to start off, I’ll look ahead into the future. Nothing too far, only until tomorrow. not even anything deep either, just that it’s school. And I don’t know if I’m looking forward to it or what... my feelings are ambivalent (<- SAT word). I mean, I want to go back and want to get back into a routine again, but at the same time, I don’t wanna ( Read more... )