Another day of Misery, and hell

[liquidvanity]

It's been another day of misery, and hell for me. This is exactly what I imagine hell to be. The only difference i can think of is that in hell all the people i love, and care for tell me they despise me and wish me death. At least i'm still being told i'm loved by those that matter. Today an Asian lady walked up to me with a little religious

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[pale_n_morbid]

how come you've been so down lately anyway :(

[liquidvanity]

B/C i've failed in my earlier years in so many ways, and it's crippled me now. I'm 25 years of age right now, and for me to get what i want i have to take a good 5 years to repair. So for 5 years i have to suffer so that when i'm 30 i cant maybe get what i want, b/c nothing is for sure. Knowing that nothing is for sure isn't making anything any easier. I'm going to start taking night classes soon to try to repair some of my mistakes. If i can survive for the next five years maybe i'll be ok. The factthat it's just a maybe isn't confronting though.

[pale_n_morbid]

i totally feel the exact same way as you do sometimes (i'm 23 btw) it feels sometimes like i've wasted my youth having fun when i should have been more goal oriented. I also feel so horridly old sometimes. Try not to be too broken up about it though, i did alot of reading on this and its fairly common...they call it a "quarter life crisis"

*hug*

[liquidvanity]

I wont say it's good to know i'm not alone, b/c that would truly be horrible. To wish such a horrible feeling on others that is. None of my past life was worth the destruction of my current, and future life. Wish i would have known better then. I'm sorry that you too have been in such a crappy mood. I'll try, but i don't think i'll accomplish that goal. Thanks for the concern though.

*hugs*