Idea I got from emily...
The first post of each month of the last year....
I am grounded...that is what I get for staying out late with Nina. Oh well. Two weeks without the computer but I can still hang out with people so that is a good thing. I had the best new years ever. Actually it was the first 15 minutes of the new year. Ohhh...good memories.
I didn't hear from Suzanne while she was home so that kinda made me sad. BUt I'm not depressed and that is a good thing. I am no longer depressed. I have a new out look on life and I love it. I have started seeing things more clearly now. I now understand that I can be sad but it doesn't mean that I have to be depressed.
Like I'm sad that Nina has gone back to college but I'm not sitting in the dark crying because I'll never see her again...because I will.
My next step in this journey towards happiness is trying to get over my fears. I have to get over my fears that I can't stop what isn't even here yet. I can't be afraid of something that i'm not sure is going to happen.
Well that is all. Keep commenting because I will be checking from school every chance I get.
And one last thing, I love you my anonymous commenter.
February
I'm so stressed and for a while I was doing everything in my power not to complain about it but fuck that this is my journal. I have so much work that I have to get done and I think that I'll be a lot less stressed after I get a dumb idea for my experiment for bio. I want to do all of these things but it seems like I don't have time.
I think it is so cute that Cormick thought he was being harsh with the comment that he left me when he was actually being sweet and considerat compared to other comments that I have gotten about the way that I act.
I really miss my A.C. I haven't heard from her in a while but I guess I will soon.
Today I had my first day of health...it actually doesn't seem like it will be that bad. Of course there are only 5 sophomores in the whole class but oh well I get to meet new people. I'm just glad that the teacher is so pregnant that she is going to be leaving soon and we get to have a sub for a while. That will be the fun part.
Good thing...I actually used my skinny today so I don't have as much hw as I should.
Bad thing...I'm so stressed that I'm wearing a rubber band around my wrist again...pain but not to much
March
Dear Amber,
I'm glad that I was there for you last night. Like I said you mean more to me then you will ever know. I hate seeing you hurting and I would and will do anything that I can to help you. I'm here to put you together piece by piece if it comes to that. You put me back together so I owe you more then you know. I'm glad that you ad a fun time last night. I'm glad that you got a little while when you didn't have to focus on anything except trying to understand The Grudge...lol. Hope to have a repeat of last night sometime soon...love you hun. Stay strong and know that I'll always be here. *HUGS*
Your Friend,
Lisa
April
Going to the show tonight and tomorrow I am staying home, wearing comfy clothes, and eating chicken soup because I'm not going to Erika's. I want to but 1. I'm sick and 2. I need to help my gram move on Sunday. So my parents said that I could go but I wouldn't be able to sleep over...problem is that they can't pick me up at Erika's because they are going to something at the elks...thanx mom and dad.
May
I've never been so angry and I don't even know what or who I'm angry at.
Maybe I'm just an angry teen.
June
Not only do I get to hang out with really cool people after school. I also get to go to the movies with my mom later tonight. You know what the best part about all of it is??? I get to have awesomely horrible cramps the whole time...YAY!!!
July
Chris is taking my somewhere in August but he won't tell me where. My sister knows and my mom knows but no one will tell me. He said that he is going to have to blindfold me so that I won't know where it is. I'm told that it is an hour away. I've been given a couple hints such as.
Hints
-Its in the south
-Like I said its an hour away
-What we are doing is 9 letters long
-The first two letters are su
-The last is r
So try and fill in the blanks for me okay people?
su_ _ _ _ _ _r
What the hell is it?
this guy pissed me off so bad at work yesterday.
He came through my line with a bunch of crap dvds and then says the following.
Him-so you're in high school?
me-yeah
Him- I use to teach high school for 6 years
Me-Cool what'd you teach?
Him-Wood shop...yeah...I had all the retards. Its sad but its the truth. I had to teach them something useful, something that they could use when they got on welfare.
I was shocked that he would say something like that at all and to me a total stranger. Could he have been any more rude?
Working at a cashier has really made me hate people more then ever.
September
State radio isn't coming. You have no idea how pissed I am. Chris was going to come and it was going to be fun. Now I have to take October 9th of to go see Anna Nalick. She is amazing and will be the first female that I go see at higher ground.
Whytie came to see me yesterday at work...twas good to see him. You guys can come visit to you know. Yes I'm talking to you.
My schedual for the next week...
Tonight:5-9:45
Saturday:1:45-5:45
Sunday:2:30-9:00
Monday:Off
Tuesday:5-9:30
Wednesday:5-10
Thursday:5-10
Yup I work a lot...so come visit.
October
working from 11-6...not to excited but oh well lots of hours means lots of money.
November
I had my second annual celebration last night. In stead of going out and freezing my ass off to get candy I decide to sit at home and eat chinese and watch a comedy. Last year it was chinese and super troopers. This year I went with chinese and sex and the city Season 2 disc 1. Thanx Darlene for an awesome night.
December
I need money for Cait's gift...it is a joint gift and it'll cost around 50 bucks. If you can give like 5 bucks that will be great. Your name will go on it but no matter what she will receive tiny tim even if I have to pay for it all by myself.
the end...