05 July 1982
Sturgis just left. I was surprised to see him, he looked a little worried. But I was mostly surprised to see him, he doesn't just drop in on me, well ever. He seemed worried and I don't know. He asked me if I thought it was alright to do something that was good even if it - well it wasn't legally right, but morally right. The conclusion that I came to was that if it was morally right and that important that someone do it then it should be easy to live with.
I'm not a complete idiot. I know Sturgis did something, I don't know what it was, but he did something and I just hope whatever he did was worth it. I really do, because it's really bothering him. When I tried to imply that he had done something, he made it seem as if he was vaguely referring to someone else, but I'm not completely dim. I don't know if he told Gretchen because he wouldn't admit that it was him, but I think maybe it would help him feel better, although I'm not sure that he takes the advice I give him seriously. He doesn't take me seriously.
I don't know.
I'll have a lot to think about this weekend, I don't think I'll be going back to the Arrows. I really did like my time there, but I want to play. Caerphilly offered me a contract, I've read over it. It's more money, but I don't care about that as much. Quidditch players get paid well, even reserves for national team Chasers get paid more than well enough, but this is more money for a reasonable person to live. I'm not even sure what I will do with the money, I know what Janie would suggest, but this is more money than - well suffice it to say I will not have to worry about money for a very long time even if I just played a year at Cearphilly. I'm sure that there are people who would laugh at the sum, but it's a good fee and, well it's a lot more than I'm used to.
I just want to make sure it's sound. I'm nervous, I don't like change. I might even need to move to be closer to the practice pitch.
It's a lot to think about, but I want to play so I think it will be good for me. It will be something new and different and I wish that didn't make me feel terrified but it does. Because there will be more pressure to play consistently well. It'll work out for the best.
I'm going to try Apparition this summer. I'm not sure how well it will work, but I will have plenty of free time this summer. I think it would make Alastor feel better than I didn't depend so much on flying, the Knight Bus, or the Floo, but we'll see how it goes. I'm not sure what else I'll be doing this summer.
Lawrence is home from Hogwarts. It's hard to believe that it was just two years ago, it seems so long ag I'm not sure what his holiday plans are.
I'm ready for the World Cup to start up, it'll be nice to have matches to listen to on the wireless.