Soul crushed...
As usual, once a finals are over, for some reason I get really happy. The sun is shining and all I can think about is, "Yeap, life's good!"
And then life comes around and kicks me in the non-existant balls. What happened? Well...
1) I thought I did well for my Audit paper... realised I failed the finals. Luckily, thanks to the combined scores from the rest of the term I got a D.
2) Also thought i did well for Intro Stats.. got a C
3) Got a super resurgence of my panic attacks. I can barely go out for long periods to have meals with my parents. My mum is mad at me and I can't really do anything about it.
4) Was talking about my crush with my friend in Malaysia. For fun.. went to her Facebook to find a picture to show said friend. Found out she is engaged. It could have been worse though, she could have been engaged to a woman, making me even more of a loser lesbian.
5) Can't talk about it with anybody at home as I am still in the closet.
6) My sister and my mum are dicks
7) More or less permanently banned from 4chan (one of my constant happy makers) cause someone on with the same IP address as mine (Singapore uses dynamic IPs) posted Child Pornography
Dammit! I feel like crying and smashing a wall. Too bad that I've made myself retarded at expressing my feelings.
Sigh....Can't even think of how to end this post... just want to cry..
And then life comes around and kicks me in the non-existant balls. What happened? Well...
1) I thought I did well for my Audit paper... realised I failed the finals. Luckily, thanks to the combined scores from the rest of the term I got a D.
2) Also thought i did well for Intro Stats.. got a C
3) Got a super resurgence of my panic attacks. I can barely go out for long periods to have meals with my parents. My mum is mad at me and I can't really do anything about it.
4) Was talking about my crush with my friend in Malaysia. For fun.. went to her Facebook to find a picture to show said friend. Found out she is engaged. It could have been worse though, she could have been engaged to a woman, making me even more of a loser lesbian.
5) Can't talk about it with anybody at home as I am still in the closet.
6) My sister and my mum are dicks
7) More or less permanently banned from 4chan (one of my constant happy makers) cause someone on with the same IP address as mine (Singapore uses dynamic IPs) posted Child Pornography
Dammit! I feel like crying and smashing a wall. Too bad that I've made myself retarded at expressing my feelings.
Sigh....Can't even think of how to end this post... just want to cry..