best valentines day ever.

i hate you for this.

It's a new year. It's supposed to be better. And actually, for a while it was. Until right now. I need to stop letting small words blow up into a huge fucking billboard that blocks everything else in my mind. I feel empty. Unloved. Unwanted. Misunderstood. I always say things in this livejournal like, "I need to do this, I need to do that," but I ( Read more... )

(Go to your Calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2005. Post the first line of it in your journal, and that's your "Year In Review".)
My Year in Review:

January:::

speaking of local music..
The Riff Tiffs - January 7th at Super Happy Fun Land

February:::

Hi! my name is melissa and i STILL never update my journal. (updated by Hank Doyle ( Read more... )

(Go to your Calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2005. Post the first line of it in your journal, and that's your "Year In Review".)
My Year in Review:

January:::

speaking of local music..
The Riff Tiffs - January 7th at Super Happy Fun Land

February:::

Hi! my name is melissa and i STILL never update my journal. (updated by Hank Doyle ( Read more... )

only a few more days of school left. i need to study so much for finals but chances are i wont. im a failure when it comes to school. it really sucks because i want to do well but i cant. i need winter break to be fun. otherwise im afraid of what ill do. i mean it doesnt have to be perfect, but i cant feel neglected like i was over thanksgiving. i ( Read more... )

okay well ( Read more... )

i take things too personally. that's what i've decided is my problem. just now ( Read more... )

staying home on friday nights make me really depressed. i hate staying home when im at my mom's because it makes me feel like everything she's ever said to me is true.

• that i am indeed a waste of life and that no one cares about me and they never have and never will.
• that i really am pathetic.
• that i really will end up being alone for the rest of ( Read more... )

isn't thanksgiving break supposed to be fun? a nice break from school? apparently not ( Read more... )