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We wrapped the movie last Friday. I was in an awful mood, tbh, mainly because I had just started my period and the woman I work weddings with was being an epic pain in my ass, I don't even remember what else but I was pretty pissed and fried before I even got there. So I walk onto set and one of the PA's is like, "They're rehearsing now if you want to pop in." So I went down the hall and tried to open the closed set door, when another PA (who had been a bitch pretty much the entire time) appeared out of nowhere, reached out in front of me and put her hand on the door - "They're rehearsing right now, so we're not going to go in there." Which is fine if she doesn't understand that, um, that's THE ONLY TIME I actually NEED to be there, but she said it like a total bitch, like I was some idiot. Normally I would have called her on it and if she continued to object I would have sent her to ask the producer what exactly I'm doing here, but I was ALREADY at the end of my rope so I just walked away. I went for a drive, I had no idea where I was so I just explored and it was lovely, I felt truly like myself again, which makes me think I need to spend more time alone. Jason is wonderful and I do get Liss!time when he's at work and I don't have shoots, but it's different. I found a BEAUTIFUL lake with lots of sailboats, so I just sat there and watched the world go by.
When I went back, I was in a much better mood. It was the last day, and night shoots are always really fun. I had the photo prop I made with me - the day I shot & 'shopped it, I daydreamed wistfully of getting the actors to sign it, so I could frame it and put it up on the film/celebrity corner of my future photography studio. Just... as a photographer, that day was SUCH a blast for me, contributing like that and ending with such a beautiful, tangible, relevant piece of this whole experience. So I intended to get it signed. Problem was, I forgot about it in the midst of everything else and suddenly it was the day before the last, and then it was the last. So that was my main goal for the entire day. I hovered quite a bit, busy but constantly aware and looking for good moments to approach them. I got Matt and Nick first, who I weren't worried about - I knew they'd be cool with it, especially Nick who, again, I cannot say enough good things about. I was nervous about Janel Moloney, I saved her for last because I didn't know how she'd feel about it. Plus, she was rarely - if ever - alone/free/un-busy, as she was our lead. I caught a moment where she was sitting totally alone, but she was eating out of a take-out box and I didn't want to interrupt. I also tried to pay attention to the crew, because I didn't know how they'd feel about me ~asking for autographs~ even though that was not at all what it was about. I pretty much had an internal anxiety attack but I kept my shit together like a goddamn boss. Growing, I'm doing it. Later, she was sitting in video village with just the script supervisor, who I've known and worked with before so I felt comfortable joining their conversation. When there was a lull, I asked Janel to sign the contact sheet and she was SUPER nice about it, making conversation and calling me "hun" and all. And after that I was officially in THE BEST mood, because my goal of the day/shoot had been achieved. Kicking myself for not buying a silver Sharpie, but I'm still so happy. After that I just got to relax and enjoy the set and the people on our last night. I left at 3:45am, they didn't finish until 6, bless.
We had the wrap party on Saturday. Jason and I went out to Buca di Beppo for dinner beforehand, which was delicious - we ordered a MOUNTAIN of food and surprisingly ate it all; huge salad, garlic bread, ravioli, and mashed potatoes, which doesn't sound like a lot but each of those dishes is intended to be shared with a family of four lol. It was a very nice dinner, it reminded us of New Years Eve because we went there last year all fancy. The wrap party was at a Japanese restaurant downtown that I'd never been to or heard of. I didn't eat anything, obviously, but I had drinks, including some type of sweet Saki, which I've decided I DO NOT LIKE. I WAS SO HUNGOVER, I HAVE BEEN SO HUNGOVER THE THREE TIMES I'VE HAD SAKI. Anyway, it was so much fun, got to talk a lot with old and new friends. Nick asked me if I wanted a drink, so I told him and it was a beer he'd never heard of, he kept saying it over and over in his accent so he wouldn't forget lol. Janel and Matt came too which I thought was really cool. Matt introduced himself to Jas and was like, "Nice to meet you. I've had a camera in my face for the past three weeks, courtesy of your girlfriend." LOL. We spent a majority of the night up on the rooftop, it was a BREATHTAKINGLY PERFECT NIGHT; we've started having cold days here but this was perfect. It was 1:45am when we started leaving, people wanted to go dancing but it was too late so a bunch of people went to the director's house. Jas and I decided to go home, Bo gave us some shit about it, "You guys look great, buuuut you're lame." LOL. We came back to the apartment and played Wizard of Oz Fluxx and then crashed. Hungover pretty much all day the next day but it was worth it.
That got longer than intended; this was going to be a bullet point entry lol. So I'll finish up with other production developments and then do another RL entry:
→ Jason and I had lunch with Marc today about our series. We're going to fundraise our pilot on Kickstarter, but before we do that, we're going to shoot a pitch video for it. We have a hilarious script, we have for awhile but we're finally moving forward with it - we're casting on Sunday and I am SO. EXCITED. We were talking today about how more than anything, this project is an excuse for us to work with people we really like. We are operating under the hope that we'll get funded and picked up and can eventually make it our full-time job to work with people we really like. It's a dream job for all of us, and we're finally, concretely starting, it feels great. I'm starting to be faced with how much work it's actually going to be and how it's going to force me to get better at things and grow; I had to call actors yesterday who I've never met, who've never heard of me, explain the project and ask if they wanted to audition. I hate calling people on the phone, especially people I don't know, but the fact that I work with people I really respect made me do it - things like that, this is the best environment for me to blossom and push myself because no one's going to be more accepting, helpful, and forgiving as these two. And in this industry, people like that are rare. I love this project. I'm starting to get nervous, but we'll see and I'll of course keep you updated!
When I went back, I was in a much better mood. It was the last day, and night shoots are always really fun. I had the photo prop I made with me - the day I shot & 'shopped it, I daydreamed wistfully of getting the actors to sign it, so I could frame it and put it up on the film/celebrity corner of my future photography studio. Just... as a photographer, that day was SUCH a blast for me, contributing like that and ending with such a beautiful, tangible, relevant piece of this whole experience. So I intended to get it signed. Problem was, I forgot about it in the midst of everything else and suddenly it was the day before the last, and then it was the last. So that was my main goal for the entire day. I hovered quite a bit, busy but constantly aware and looking for good moments to approach them. I got Matt and Nick first, who I weren't worried about - I knew they'd be cool with it, especially Nick who, again, I cannot say enough good things about. I was nervous about Janel Moloney, I saved her for last because I didn't know how she'd feel about it. Plus, she was rarely - if ever - alone/free/un-busy, as she was our lead. I caught a moment where she was sitting totally alone, but she was eating out of a take-out box and I didn't want to interrupt. I also tried to pay attention to the crew, because I didn't know how they'd feel about me ~asking for autographs~ even though that was not at all what it was about. I pretty much had an internal anxiety attack but I kept my shit together like a goddamn boss. Growing, I'm doing it. Later, she was sitting in video village with just the script supervisor, who I've known and worked with before so I felt comfortable joining their conversation. When there was a lull, I asked Janel to sign the contact sheet and she was SUPER nice about it, making conversation and calling me "hun" and all. And after that I was officially in THE BEST mood, because my goal of the day/shoot had been achieved. Kicking myself for not buying a silver Sharpie, but I'm still so happy. After that I just got to relax and enjoy the set and the people on our last night. I left at 3:45am, they didn't finish until 6, bless.
We had the wrap party on Saturday. Jason and I went out to Buca di Beppo for dinner beforehand, which was delicious - we ordered a MOUNTAIN of food and surprisingly ate it all; huge salad, garlic bread, ravioli, and mashed potatoes, which doesn't sound like a lot but each of those dishes is intended to be shared with a family of four lol. It was a very nice dinner, it reminded us of New Years Eve because we went there last year all fancy. The wrap party was at a Japanese restaurant downtown that I'd never been to or heard of. I didn't eat anything, obviously, but I had drinks, including some type of sweet Saki, which I've decided I DO NOT LIKE. I WAS SO HUNGOVER, I HAVE BEEN SO HUNGOVER THE THREE TIMES I'VE HAD SAKI. Anyway, it was so much fun, got to talk a lot with old and new friends. Nick asked me if I wanted a drink, so I told him and it was a beer he'd never heard of, he kept saying it over and over in his accent so he wouldn't forget lol. Janel and Matt came too which I thought was really cool. Matt introduced himself to Jas and was like, "Nice to meet you. I've had a camera in my face for the past three weeks, courtesy of your girlfriend." LOL. We spent a majority of the night up on the rooftop, it was a BREATHTAKINGLY PERFECT NIGHT; we've started having cold days here but this was perfect. It was 1:45am when we started leaving, people wanted to go dancing but it was too late so a bunch of people went to the director's house. Jas and I decided to go home, Bo gave us some shit about it, "You guys look great, buuuut you're lame." LOL. We came back to the apartment and played Wizard of Oz Fluxx and then crashed. Hungover pretty much all day the next day but it was worth it.
That got longer than intended; this was going to be a bullet point entry lol. So I'll finish up with other production developments and then do another RL entry:
→ Jason and I had lunch with Marc today about our series. We're going to fundraise our pilot on Kickstarter, but before we do that, we're going to shoot a pitch video for it. We have a hilarious script, we have for awhile but we're finally moving forward with it - we're casting on Sunday and I am SO. EXCITED. We were talking today about how more than anything, this project is an excuse for us to work with people we really like. We are operating under the hope that we'll get funded and picked up and can eventually make it our full-time job to work with people we really like. It's a dream job for all of us, and we're finally, concretely starting, it feels great. I'm starting to be faced with how much work it's actually going to be and how it's going to force me to get better at things and grow; I had to call actors yesterday who I've never met, who've never heard of me, explain the project and ask if they wanted to audition. I hate calling people on the phone, especially people I don't know, but the fact that I work with people I really respect made me do it - things like that, this is the best environment for me to blossom and push myself because no one's going to be more accepting, helpful, and forgiving as these two. And in this industry, people like that are rare. I love this project. I'm starting to get nervous, but we'll see and I'll of course keep you updated!