Jacob/Bella Drabble, A Empty Warm in the Cold
Title: A Empty Warm in the Cold
Rating: K
Word Count: 492
For the March Drabble at the theair_thesun
Cold.
It's the one thing that I feel through it all. It's the one thing I truly allow to consume me. I wish I could escape. I wish I could let it go but I won't allow it. I can't. However, it's the punishment I deserve. This was the punishment that I should have suffered through months ago.
Empty.
It's the feeling that seems to stick, like the blood running through my veins, mentally and physically. It was over, I knew that. My pregnancy was over, my relationship with Edward was over and my sanity was almost gone. I was floating, never sticking with one thought for too long. I had become a mental drifter. The one thing that I was able to stick with, I shouldn't. He wasn't mine. He never would be. I didn't deserve him. I still remember that day where his feelings became mine once again. All he did was make a simple request for me, from him.
"If you loved me at all, if that love every meant anything to you, you'll do this for me. This will be the last thing I'll only ask of you again." He had told with me was as much conviction as when he confessed his love for me. His eyes had never looked so passionate about something. I had never cried as hard as I did because of it. Even during my zombie months I had never cried this hard.
Warm.
So, I did it. I did it all for him. My love for him meant more than he'll ever know. It actually meant way more than it should have given our circumstances. Jacob was the only bright spot through this whole ordeal. I should have known he would have been. I can’t help but chuckle, I always doubt him. Him and his love.
Jacob, after all that had happened was still being my personal sun. He was being my protector in spite of everything, even when he shouldn't have been. I should have known that Jacob would stand by me through this as he's been loyal to the point of heartbreak for me, even if it was because of me. I wish I had this much faith in us before this all went down. Maybe I wouldn't have had to go down this path. Maybe I should have made that dream a reality. After all, it was the natural path my life was suppose to take. But like before, I was a little bit too attracted to the unnatural. Going back to that reality dream, maybe by now I would have those little black-haired children. I wouldn't feel pain all over, I would feel loved. I would feel warm inside again. I always said that being warm was a Jacob thing because it truly was, like now.
Jacob Black, always made me, Isabella Swan feel warm on even the coldest of nights. This time it was a cold table.
Rating: K
Word Count: 492
For the March Drabble at the theair_thesun
Cold.
It's the one thing that I feel through it all. It's the one thing I truly allow to consume me. I wish I could escape. I wish I could let it go but I won't allow it. I can't. However, it's the punishment I deserve. This was the punishment that I should have suffered through months ago.
Empty.
It's the feeling that seems to stick, like the blood running through my veins, mentally and physically. It was over, I knew that. My pregnancy was over, my relationship with Edward was over and my sanity was almost gone. I was floating, never sticking with one thought for too long. I had become a mental drifter. The one thing that I was able to stick with, I shouldn't. He wasn't mine. He never would be. I didn't deserve him. I still remember that day where his feelings became mine once again. All he did was make a simple request for me, from him.
"If you loved me at all, if that love every meant anything to you, you'll do this for me. This will be the last thing I'll only ask of you again." He had told with me was as much conviction as when he confessed his love for me. His eyes had never looked so passionate about something. I had never cried as hard as I did because of it. Even during my zombie months I had never cried this hard.
Warm.
So, I did it. I did it all for him. My love for him meant more than he'll ever know. It actually meant way more than it should have given our circumstances. Jacob was the only bright spot through this whole ordeal. I should have known he would have been. I can’t help but chuckle, I always doubt him. Him and his love.
Jacob, after all that had happened was still being my personal sun. He was being my protector in spite of everything, even when he shouldn't have been. I should have known that Jacob would stand by me through this as he's been loyal to the point of heartbreak for me, even if it was because of me. I wish I had this much faith in us before this all went down. Maybe I wouldn't have had to go down this path. Maybe I should have made that dream a reality. After all, it was the natural path my life was suppose to take. But like before, I was a little bit too attracted to the unnatural. Going back to that reality dream, maybe by now I would have those little black-haired children. I wouldn't feel pain all over, I would feel loved. I would feel warm inside again. I always said that being warm was a Jacob thing because it truly was, like now.
Jacob Black, always made me, Isabella Swan feel warm on even the coldest of nights. This time it was a cold table.