Why is it that we dream, when dreams only make reality seem even harsher?

You teach me the alphabet, so I write.
You teach me words, so I talk.
You show me literature, so I read.
You support me, so I walk, I run.

But you never teach me of love, so I don't.

The yesterdays are blurred together now, a huge mass of memory with vivid moments of clarity.
Today is fresh and new, but also heavy and dark, tainted with sadness and pain. Filled with the struggle of living, the hurt of being alive.
The tomorrows are mysterious and unknown, exciting yet terrifying, so full of possibility, but also of failure. ( Read more... )

we used to play together
    run around the merry-go-round
    screaming at the top of our lungs

we used to hold hands
    back when we didn’t understand what it meant
    to be a boy, and to be a girl

we used to tell each other everything
    from secrets
    to stories, dreams and wishes

we used to say hello
    hi, hey, hullo
    or we’d just wave ( Read more... )

sometimes
    i see you out of the corner of my eye,
        an afterimage, burnt into my mind
sometimes
    i hear your voice,
        or rather, what i think it would sound like
sometimes
    i feel you at the back of my mind,
        a constant gentle thrum: reassuring and stable
sometimes
    i feel your absence,
        because the gaping hole in my ( Read more... )

when i'm around you, it feels like i'm drowning.

...i don't know how to swim.

it doesn't matter if we're 'meant' to be together.

it doesn't matter how cute we look together.

it doesn't matter, how much i love you, or you me.

what matters is that we're not together. and that's just how things are.

because the world is so much bigger than the two of us. the universe will survive if we don't find happiness. we're just two ( Read more... )

I don't expect anything from you: I don't get hurt.

the only thing worse than failing, is ending up between failing and excelling. just passing is never enough.

not a genius, but not an idiot. an in-between.
         not an A+, but not a F. just a C.

not a hundred, but not a zero. just a fifty.
         not extra-ordinary, but not boring. just normal. just ordinary.

what makes you stand out from the ( Read more... )

sometimes i wish i could go back in time.

back to when we were still friends; maybe this time i'll be able to fix things.

back to before we were friends; i'd never meet you, and we'd never friends, and i'd never get hurt. not by you at least.

back to when the world was a small small place. just me and everyone i loved, and who loved me back; life ( Read more... )