I Was Stupid and You Broke Me Down
This is for Yuka, such a darling girl that still manages to make me cry when she speaks the right words… Or the terribly wrong words too!
I’m making this for you because you made one for me, but also because you deserve it. You represent something in my life.
♣ Because we were fucking mad and we actually waited for 2 hours in the rain for GC’s show.
♣ Because we were so in love with these guys it’s not even funny!
♣ Because we couldn’t help but laugh our asses off at our friends
♣ Especially when they did shit like this.
♣ Because we always did make the cutest couple ^^
♣ And the fucking craziest too
♣ Because we gave each other stupid silent treatments and had silly fights that weren’t worth having.
♣ Because we made the biggest messes
♣ Because we were just downright fucked in the head
♣ Because we love the little yellow bike
♣ Because you introduced me to Jessy
♣ Because we laugh at stupid shit like this
♣ Because we fucking rocked the 2004 Halloween Disco
♣ Because we both love Santa’s cartoons^^(remember? ahaha)
♣ Because you were there with me till the end
♣ But we never did finish the junk look
♣ Because we were meant to be friends forever
♣ But most of all, because we grew up together
Ok, I think I’m off to bed, now…
Oh, I just want to say something, actually:
This is a formal letter of apology for people that know me since ID7. They saw me go through all my changes and as I read my oldest of old blogs (my ex-Blurty one), I saw what a fucking fake I was. I really can’t see how you all stuck to me through thick and thin and I really want to say: sorry, I was such a fucking moron.
Life is not all black, and I do realize this. I can’t believe I used to think myself a Goth!! What was I fucking thinking? What a retard. Now I know that I was nothing more than just a lost girl, I guess… I wanted to find I place of my own, but fuck that shit, I’ve found myself, thank whatever. I’m not like that anymore, I’m my own being, I walk with my head high for real now, it’s not an act. I know where I belong and I’m proud of the changes I’ve made. And I have another very special girl to thank for that, and that girl is Julia, a very dear friend that I’ve made here.
Julia, minha Xuh linda, eu tea mo, viu? Obrigada por me mostrar o que a vida realmente é… Só da nós duas filosofando e tentando entender o que estamos fazendo na terra, e dai finalmente percebendo que só estamos aqui pra viver nosso tempo e o que rola, rolou. Obrigada por tudo, pelo apoio e pela amizade. Te amo e espero sempre estar aqui pra você assim como você está pra mim.
Ok, now I’ll go.
Love you all.
I’m making this for you because you made one for me, but also because you deserve it. You represent something in my life.
♣ Because we were fucking mad and we actually waited for 2 hours in the rain for GC’s show.
♣ Because we were so in love with these guys it’s not even funny!
♣ Because we couldn’t help but laugh our asses off at our friends
♣ Especially when they did shit like this.
♣ Because we always did make the cutest couple ^^
♣ And the fucking craziest too
♣ Because we gave each other stupid silent treatments and had silly fights that weren’t worth having.
♣ Because we made the biggest messes
♣ Because we were just downright fucked in the head
♣ Because we love the little yellow bike
♣ Because you introduced me to Jessy
♣ Because we laugh at stupid shit like this
♣ Because we fucking rocked the 2004 Halloween Disco
♣ Because we both love Santa’s cartoons^^(remember? ahaha)
♣ Because you were there with me till the end
♣ But we never did finish the junk look
♣ Because we were meant to be friends forever
♣ But most of all, because we grew up together
Ok, I think I’m off to bed, now…
Oh, I just want to say something, actually:
This is a formal letter of apology for people that know me since ID7. They saw me go through all my changes and as I read my oldest of old blogs (my ex-Blurty one), I saw what a fucking fake I was. I really can’t see how you all stuck to me through thick and thin and I really want to say: sorry, I was such a fucking moron.
Life is not all black, and I do realize this. I can’t believe I used to think myself a Goth!! What was I fucking thinking? What a retard. Now I know that I was nothing more than just a lost girl, I guess… I wanted to find I place of my own, but fuck that shit, I’ve found myself, thank whatever. I’m not like that anymore, I’m my own being, I walk with my head high for real now, it’s not an act. I know where I belong and I’m proud of the changes I’ve made. And I have another very special girl to thank for that, and that girl is Julia, a very dear friend that I’ve made here.
Julia, minha Xuh linda, eu tea mo, viu? Obrigada por me mostrar o que a vida realmente é… Só da nós duas filosofando e tentando entender o que estamos fazendo na terra, e dai finalmente percebendo que só estamos aqui pra viver nosso tempo e o que rola, rolou. Obrigada por tudo, pelo apoio e pela amizade. Te amo e espero sempre estar aqui pra você assim como você está pra mim.
Ok, now I’ll go.
Love you all.