Why do you have to even try to look me in the eye what do you want to see? Do you want to see my pain…I can’t bear it anymore and I’m doing this again because you ask me to, I just feel helpless and can’t wait to leave this place? You make me feel like hell. Do you even know completely what I’m going through? You tell me of your pain and how about ( Read more... )

A change of activities might help ease my sorrows and pain so I’m trying to change so many things the routine I go through daily will be the first thing I’ll be changing hopefully by next week I’ll have my answers. I don’t want to break my promise by being in a place that will just continuously temp me too. My heart is full of pain but not anger I ( Read more... )

“O my Lord, as powerful as fire, O omnipotent one, now I offer You all obeisance’s, falling on the ground at Your feet. O my Lord, please lead me on the right path to reach You, and since You know all that I have done in the past, please free me from the reactions to my past sins so that there will be no hindrance to my progress ( Read more... )

I completely understand what you feel and will respect what you want to do. What I feel about you is all together driving me crazy. You scare me too. I don't know how to stop myself if I can only tell you what I feel every time your around. I can't be normal. I have to endure whatever it takes. I wish things were all different ( Read more... )

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I guess I don’t have to ask I already know…now it’s time to consciously try to not to get to know you more. To no longer ask of you. The less I know the better. If I see you I’ll just be normal. I don’t like how this feels. Enough of you ( Read more... )

I enjoyed the conversation I had with you the other night…Good luck in finding this journal. How did everything start? Maybe it started with that desire to love and be loved. Well it started with Jam. It was her telling me about this guy that she said she thinks I’ll really get along with. Telling me how funny and intelligent the person is. Well ( Read more... )

One of my friends was wearing the same perfume that you used to have when we were together all of a sudden I was back to a place where everything felt right. I hate things that remind you that way. I all of a sudden forgot how you hurt me. The scent made me miss you. I wish things were different, I wish things didn’t end the way it did. I wish you ( Read more... )

Last Saturday one of my good friends got married and I was a witness to their union as husband and wife. Just like the last wedding of a friend I attended I had an impromptu part in the wedding. I had to read again. I read or asked God to bless them and those who are significant in both their lives. While going through the process I felt that ( Read more... )

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