Well, nothing really has been going on, of course I still have a few things working their way around in my mind.... I'm really worried about my Amber she has been sick for a long time and isn't getting any better. I don't know what I would do if I lost my Amber.... I know my heart would shatter though... And then Ash has her tumor.... She finally ( Read more... )

Well not too much has been going on lately...I do have some bad news though. The other day I found out that my Aunt Karen wants to fight for rights over me instead of me going through amancipation and all that good stuff. But there's so many problems to that. 1. I don't like my Aunt's gf she's part of the reason that I had to go to vista. 2. I don' ( Read more... )

On June 25 around 3 in the afternoon I got to see Matt again. Well, when Matt, Jason, and Robby got to Amber's house Ashley came over and picked up Amber and Robby while I rode in the car with Jason and Matt. We went up to the coffee shop and me and Matt got some thing Tammy made us. I felt kinda bad because Ash and some other people where asking ( Read more... )

Okay...At 5:30 am on Monday morning I woke up and I told Matt hey guess what I get to see you today. I got up and got a shower, did the whole nine yards of straightening hair, makeup, making everything just perfect. At 5:30 pm me and Amber where in Panama Cit, Florida walking the miracle strip..just hoping to see a glance of Matt or Robby 10 min or ( Read more... )

Well I have been thinking really hard lately...been really deep in thought and all that good stuff...Some one told me they are searching for sanity in their life...and that pain is an illusion and love is a chemical. But what if sanity is the actual illusion. Like, maybe the people just invented the word sanity as an escape...such as they convinced ( Read more... )

Okay...like I said this all depends on if I get amancipated or not. But I talked to Ashley today and she said that saturday me and her can go and look at apartments and price them to see how much money we would need. I heard from mom yesterday and she said that if I wanted anything out of the house to come and get it since she is selling the house ( Read more... )

Okay.. so I talked to my DCF worker and my court date is on the 22nd. Nothing much has been going on but me and Amber are most likely not going to visit Matt...*cry cry emo emo cut cut* so I'm really down over that. I need to call my Dad and ask him for some money since I am totally broke. But basically on the 22nd they will decide if they want to ( Read more... )

So...the update on my life is... Today I got done with my court stuff and I don't have to do anymore..So I'm glad about that. Lately, things have been fine...Been living with Amber still...I went to a family reuinion with my Dad and there I met my brother that I haven't seen since I was 5. I learned a lot about what kind of person my mom was when I ( Read more... )

The other night I had a bad dream...well I'm not sure what day since my sleeping pattern is wayyyyyyy off...But it almost tore me down... My dream was about me at my mom's house and I was there with Matt and Robby. Well Josh got pissed at me over something and he beat the shit out of me in the dream..and I scremed for Matt and Robby to help but ( Read more... )

A CUTTHROAT KISS LYRICS

"Cutthroat"

Take your eyes and see me now
Before I take what you took of me
Lay my head on bloodless hands tonight
Drown in tears the clear but poison wine

Well I need what you owe
Will you pay me back in bandaged covered wrists
Don't you know
The feeling of a cutthroat lover's kiss
Please don't go
Breaking other hearts just ( Read more... )