I am a terrible thing. What a terrible thing I've become ( Read more... )

Every now and again I experience what is known as a "dark night of the soul." I had yet to respond to it in a constructive way until most recently. Ideally, this is what I want for my life, but perseverence needs to be built over time ( Read more... )

About three weeks ago, I asked God to show me ways in which I tend to manipulate situations or lie to myself in order to justify unacceptable behavior. I have found in the last few days that my prayers are in the midst of being answered, as my eyes are becoming more open to the darkness in my heart. It's gotten to the point where I question every ( Read more... )

Unwitting offenses have crushed you, my dear brother
Though you are made in the likeness of our Father
A distant fire is now a forest burning
My laughter now turned to mourning
The fondest memory cannot pardon my sin
They all disturb me, insisting the pain I begin
You, whom I love and adore
May God bless you, through and through, heart and core.

I ran 6 miles at the gym tonight. The plan was to do 8.5, but my joints started to get mad at me so I stopped. Anyway, that's the most I've run in a long time and it felt good to reflect while exercising.

At one point I remembered that I was missing a memorial for my friend's little brother who died last week. A lot of my friends were going and I  ( Read more... )

So today is my first day apart from Elijah since we began seeing each other. It is going surprisingly well, though i do miss him. Last night was hard. When I got back to my car at the airport, I could still smell him; it was like he left a little piece of his presence behind. Then I got home and opened a package from him that had one of his t- ( Read more... )

Today I bought all the school books I will need for the Fall. I started reading chapter one of Advanced Nutrition and Human Metabolism. Then I spent an hour and a half checking out the companion website; I even took a practice quiz.  I know I'll be doing this all semester. It will help distract me from missing him too much.  I worry though, because ( Read more... )

i have the most precious gift of a boyfriend, whom I have seen every day for the past 82 days.