Just Lettin Go
This next entry is kinda a rant so if you dont want to spend your time, i suggest not reading it. oh and btw...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TESS!!!
Sometimes I dont like myself because I put way to much pressure on myself to be like people want me to be, or because im to much this and not enough that. I tend to look at people and say, damn i wish that was me. I think college has taught me that those things matter less and less. Im not so insecure and I do voice my opionions more often then not. I still let people get away with stupid stuff. But here its like I can do what I want and I dont really care who is gonna judge me. Being judged happens a lot. I know that Im guilty of judging people all the time in fact, ill probably end up doing it within the next 20 mins but still. Its something that Im going to work on. Dont Judge a Book By Its Cover. Heres a question though, is it judging someone if you do know a lot about their personality. Can you say oh that person is such a........... if you actually know them? I dont know I guess probably not because you know them but besides that yes, it is judging.
Im really excited about this summer, i get to see my friends again and I get to have money again, thats going to be soooo nice. Right now Im in debt to the bank. My mom was like you need to get that taken care of and I was like umm i have no money to do that. I cant wait for summer, i really cant. Its my favorite season. I mean the sun, the beach, and the water. It all is so nice and beautiful. Im giving serious thought to moving to the West coast to go to grad school or whatever, I just want to be warm for a whole year in a row. I think that would be such a change of pace. Florida should be so fun this year. All of my girls and I down in Daytona Beach for a week, it should be insane, but in a good way.
I miss basketball so much. I miss playing on a team, and having that team chemistry. I miss the feeling when you are in a close game and your so in the zone that all you can hear is your teammates, your coach, the whistle, and the ball hitting the floor. You dont the crowd, you dont feel the sweat running down your face, and you dont hear how hard your breathing because the game is in overtime and your team is maintaing a small lead. Thats just a feeling that cant be replaced. I cant wait to have it again. Its like a endorphine high. Your so in the zone and its funny after because after the game you cant remember the game, just specific situations where It stuck in your mind for some reason. I really cant wait to start my workout, im that much closer to being on an organized team again. I can hardly wait.
School is almost over and its so hard to believe. We have 5 more days of classes left. This is gonnna be such a hard week. I have a Spanish presentation due on Friday and I have to meet with my English teacher on Tuesday. I dont know whats going on in Econ class but I do need to watch some of the extra credit movies for psychology. I hope the movies that I watch are at least semi-good. Leaving SMCM is going to be bittersweet. I mean I will miss the friends that I have here soooo much. I can see myself being friends with the friends that I have made here for the rest of my life. I want to visit them when I come home from Eastern. The good news is that I will always have the memories from SMCM. Dance parties in our room, crazy drunken times, baseball games, movie nights, sailing, and sheetz. Its all gonna be in my memory forever. I cant wait to go to Eastern though. Basketball, starting work on my major. It should be so nice. I register soon, I hope that I can get the classes that I want to get and that someone will help me with whatever I need to do.
Ok im so tired Im fallling asleep at the keyboard. I gotta get up at a halfway decent time tomorrow cause me, dad, and my lil bro are going to the Navy vs. Johns Hopkins game tomorrow!! WOOHOOO. Ok im off to bed. Goodnight!
Summer cant come soon enough!
Sometimes I dont like myself because I put way to much pressure on myself to be like people want me to be, or because im to much this and not enough that. I tend to look at people and say, damn i wish that was me. I think college has taught me that those things matter less and less. Im not so insecure and I do voice my opionions more often then not. I still let people get away with stupid stuff. But here its like I can do what I want and I dont really care who is gonna judge me. Being judged happens a lot. I know that Im guilty of judging people all the time in fact, ill probably end up doing it within the next 20 mins but still. Its something that Im going to work on. Dont Judge a Book By Its Cover. Heres a question though, is it judging someone if you do know a lot about their personality. Can you say oh that person is such a........... if you actually know them? I dont know I guess probably not because you know them but besides that yes, it is judging.
Im really excited about this summer, i get to see my friends again and I get to have money again, thats going to be soooo nice. Right now Im in debt to the bank. My mom was like you need to get that taken care of and I was like umm i have no money to do that. I cant wait for summer, i really cant. Its my favorite season. I mean the sun, the beach, and the water. It all is so nice and beautiful. Im giving serious thought to moving to the West coast to go to grad school or whatever, I just want to be warm for a whole year in a row. I think that would be such a change of pace. Florida should be so fun this year. All of my girls and I down in Daytona Beach for a week, it should be insane, but in a good way.
I miss basketball so much. I miss playing on a team, and having that team chemistry. I miss the feeling when you are in a close game and your so in the zone that all you can hear is your teammates, your coach, the whistle, and the ball hitting the floor. You dont the crowd, you dont feel the sweat running down your face, and you dont hear how hard your breathing because the game is in overtime and your team is maintaing a small lead. Thats just a feeling that cant be replaced. I cant wait to have it again. Its like a endorphine high. Your so in the zone and its funny after because after the game you cant remember the game, just specific situations where It stuck in your mind for some reason. I really cant wait to start my workout, im that much closer to being on an organized team again. I can hardly wait.
School is almost over and its so hard to believe. We have 5 more days of classes left. This is gonnna be such a hard week. I have a Spanish presentation due on Friday and I have to meet with my English teacher on Tuesday. I dont know whats going on in Econ class but I do need to watch some of the extra credit movies for psychology. I hope the movies that I watch are at least semi-good. Leaving SMCM is going to be bittersweet. I mean I will miss the friends that I have here soooo much. I can see myself being friends with the friends that I have made here for the rest of my life. I want to visit them when I come home from Eastern. The good news is that I will always have the memories from SMCM. Dance parties in our room, crazy drunken times, baseball games, movie nights, sailing, and sheetz. Its all gonna be in my memory forever. I cant wait to go to Eastern though. Basketball, starting work on my major. It should be so nice. I register soon, I hope that I can get the classes that I want to get and that someone will help me with whatever I need to do.
Ok im so tired Im fallling asleep at the keyboard. I gotta get up at a halfway decent time tomorrow cause me, dad, and my lil bro are going to the Navy vs. Johns Hopkins game tomorrow!! WOOHOOO. Ok im off to bed. Goodnight!
Summer cant come soon enough!