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[littleboybleu]

eric always said the music i listen to seems to reflect my mood...

last night i bought jewel's second cd 'spirit'

and i also bought janet jackson's 'the velvet rope'

*scratches his chin*

Comments

[lezziexual]

wow matt...so what have you become?

[littleboybleu]

gay?

dunno...

[lezziexual]

you are so lame
you always disappoint me
it's kinda like our running joke
but it's really not funny
i just want you to live up to
the image of you i create
i see you and i'm so unsatisfied

[littleboybleu]

wow that's fucking INCREDIBLE because for the past few years i've been hearing that from not only my step-father and the occasional friend...

BUT FROM MY FUCKING SELF!

you wanna know what my biggest emo-trait is!?

MY SELF LOATHING AND DISGUST/DISSATISFACTION!

and im sure you could really care less about what my ACTUAL problem is...but to me i've done nothing but fail and im SOOOOO sorry that you happened to be another person i've let down in my life...but i haven't exactly been living up to myself either.

if you can think of anything that might help i SERIOUSLY would LOVE to hear it because i can't think of anything!

and i have tried a lot. maybe i need to see a counselor or something...take medicine.

just don't think i'm even happy with myself.