i'm very much alone in this moment ( Read more... )

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Be really really lame and embarassing and emo, and I promise I won't judge you too harshly. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me abut your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me what you wish you could tell ( Read more... )

Fragments of a Year ( Read more... )

he has been avoiding my calls. he says he usually is busy when i call, but deliberately chooses not to call me back. he apologized, and said he knows that it's not the right way to deal with it. he says that needs time, and he thinks i do too. i can't think of any other way to explain to him my fear that in our need for time, the awkward pain of ( Read more... )

i'm less overt, less over-the-top than i was. i haven't cried since friday, though i have had moments when i thought i would. i think it is just that i have cried myself dry, at least for now ( Read more... )

cody is gone. he was gone really, when the new year broke and we said goodbye ( Read more... )

being locked up with my suitemates for the past term has been, as people have started to see, maddening. it continues to get worse, so i am counting down the days until my flight home (13). however, on the bright side, yesterday was beautiful ( Read more... )

the chicago-suburbs "a" is creeping into my mouth. i catch myself, sometimes saying it. after i say 'real' and it sounds like, 'rell' i bite my lip and recognize that i continue to lose myself in the vast midwest ( Read more... )

It's been a while and everything is different. Life in a list ( Read more... )

Existing is too much. Breathing is like being hit by a truck ( Read more... )