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I watched the entire season of Game of Thrones over the past couple of days on HBO-GO and OnDemand. You've gotta love those services. Anyway, while I wasn't expecting much from the series, I was surprised to find that I enjoyed it more than the most recent season of True Blood. You can count me in as a fan. Season 2 can't start soon enough ( Read more... ) -
40 relatively peaceful days
I have to say, this has probably been the easiest 40 days I've built up since I started recovery many moons ago. That's not to say that it hasn't been without hardship or outside help. The first 6 days were spent in the CCU of the hospital and the following 14 in treatment. But the next 20, spent living in far-South Jersey haven't been as ( Read more... ) -
Grandmom
Seeing grandmom tonight was kinda tough. She was clearly scared. I would be too, I suppose. She thought she had a stroke but as it turns out she has two brain tumors at the base of her brain pressing on the tube that feeds spinal fluid up into the base of the brain. They are both large tumors. The doctor thought it strange that she would have two ( Read more... ) -
Been a while...
I'm posting from my phone so this will be brief. My birthday was a failure. Only one person showed up. I got depressed and acted out. A week later I had a run in with the law. I can't go into details on that pending my court hearing in, um, a few months. Eek! After spending a week in a hospital I went into an inpatient treatment facility seeing ( Read more... ) -
Living Situation
Today Harry reiterated to me that he wants me out sometime soon. He seemed to suggest that I should be out of here by the end of the month. Honestly, I don't know what I'm going to do. I can't afford to move anywhere right now. Hell, even if I was working it would take me at least two months of saving to be able to afford to move out on my own ( Read more... ) -
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I am an empath. It's not exactly something I'm proud of or happy with, but it's part of who I am. I pick up the emotions of those around me and suck them up like a sponge. Positive emotions energize me. Negative emotions tear me down. Today is definitely a down day for me ( Read more... ) -
Baseline
For the past month I haven't been taking any of my psych meds, an effort to establish my mental baseline. I haven't felt what it feels to be "normal" for me for a long time. I had hoped it would be a bit liberating in a way, that maybe I would see something in myself that I don't normally get to see, perhaps added creativity or a return to my ( Read more... ) -
Like a cracked egg
but not yet broken...
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Day 122
I haven't updated in quite some time. Nothing interesting has been happening so I haven't felt the need to write. Given the amount of time that has passed since the last entry, let me try and dredge some stuff up ( Read more... ) -
Day 110
114 days is the longest period of recovery I've ever had. I'm quickly coming up on it and am pretty excited. But as of this morning the chance of me continuing past 114 was not looking good. I had already begun a relapse cycle. Mentally I was there. Physically, the steps necessary to relapse were in motion (i.e. placement of an order and ( Read more... )