life is gooooooood, God is GREAT!
So I'm sitting in the very back of the bus right now, on the way home from our Ventura concert (first concert of second semester). And holy crap, it was sooooo amazingly awesome! I had such a huge amount of joy and energy, and I was completely unrestrained in showing it. Man, what a great feeling. And I was going to (and really SHOULD) do homework on the ride home, but I decided instead to use up my laptop battery down to the last, like, five percent and just jam with my headphones on to all my favorite worship music. You think that's cheesy? It gets better. I'm also dancing in my seat. Seriously...between sentences, I'm dancing. Aww yeah. It feels so good to be joyful always, and to pray continually. I made a conscious effort today to give everything to God, down to the smallest things, like my contacts getting all dry in the middle of the concert. I was blinking like crazy during one song, and I just paused for a second and prayed, "God, I need some moisture up in here." And seriously, my eyes watered a little and I went on singing.
So God is basically the coolest ever. Of course, that's the very least of rad things about this day and the concert. We sounded AWESOME, and the church members were so into it, like in a worshipful sense. The Spirit was totally moving. I can't even explain the amount of happiness I experienced tonight. It's simply inexpressible. Can I live like this EVERY DAY? That would rock my world. And my socks...off. Haha! Anyway...I'm really pumped about life right now. And everything has been soooooo clearly laid out in front of me as evidence of God's presence in my life, and my need to give him FULL control. My Connectedness is totally in full swing right now, it's fabulous. Even in the stressful times this week, I've seen how it all points to God and the absolute peace He can bring me if I'll just turn to Him in everything. WOW! Like, there's a situation with a friend that's been sort of weird lately, but I feel like through this, God's showing me that I shouldn't depend on any one person or group of people to bring me happiness or comfort or whatever. I only need to rely on God for all of that, and then recognize that my friendships are all just a great bonus. No, more than that - a blessing! But they're not what I live for. They're not what sustains me.
(K, the rest of this was written just now, at my apartment. Just FYI.)
So after I wrote all that, I got really nauseous, probably because I was trying to focus on my computer screen when the bus was going crazy. So I shut off my overhead light, cuddled up against the window and just listened to whatever random songs my iTunes played. And these five songs came on, and each one was just like, WHOA! So appropriate in some way or another. So I'm gonna post some excerpts from them all.
MercyMe - I Worship You
I've been walking with a big grin
Singing with my eyes closed
Lifting up my hands
I've been lost in the moment
Sending up praises
Now I think I understand
When I open up and let it flow
I feel Your touch and then I know
I can never live without it
And I'm never gonna doubt it
Everyday it's new, yeah
There's nothing any better
I'll be singing it forever
I worship You...
All Together Separate - Face to Face
It seems I came to life when I heard You whisper
You said the words, "I love you"
Every time I think about Your grace it's clearer
You are the one I've been searching for to complete me
When I draw near
You always meet me
Longing just to be together again
With every passing day
The shadows in my life fade away
The more I see You face to face...
Chris Tomlin - Not to Us
The cross before me the world behind
No turning back, raise the banner high
It's not for me, it's all for You
Relient K - Balloon Ride
There were times in my life when I was confused
There were things between me and God that were blocking my view
So I prayed, "Oh dear Lord, take these things away so I can see."
He answered my prayer
And at the sight of Him I fell to my knees
And until I went onto that fateful trip
I thought that I was on a sinking ship
Until I went on a balloon ride
(I could see everything from up there)
I went on a balloon ride
And now everything seems clear...
Trei, Doi, Unu - Tu Esti Domn
(I couldn't find lyrics for this one, but it's just the Romanian version of the song "Everything to Me"...)
And I will never stop praising You
For all the things You've done for me
And I'll be Yours forever
Jesus You're everything to me...
Soooo yeah...GREAT day today. I hope and pray that this whole week is even half as great as today was.