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I paid a visit to my father this weekend. The Hyuuga House seems so far away from me now.My life just feels like...a dream....
When I visited my father , he seemed very pleased to see me. He kept lecturing me about my "future life". I wanted to ask him if he did this to Hinata, but I was afraid he would get mad at me. I keep feeling like..he's trying to put me in this shell, or husk,..or this image of a perfect daughter.He always tries to push me to my limit. I want to tell him that I have my own choices in life too, but he seems to be making them for me. He probably thinks I am okay with it because I never complain or anything, but I don't because it is not in my place to and it would be very disrespectful. I don't know why he is doing this , but I think it has something to do with my mother...Maybe he thinks that since my mother died giving birth to me he want to save the last thing his wife gave to him...Oh well..I shouldn't be worrying , but this feeling of uneasiness just keeps nagging at me. I guess I'll go get some sleep now.
When I visited my father , he seemed very pleased to see me. He kept lecturing me about my "future life". I wanted to ask him if he did this to Hinata, but I was afraid he would get mad at me. I keep feeling like..he's trying to put me in this shell, or husk,..or this image of a perfect daughter.He always tries to push me to my limit. I want to tell him that I have my own choices in life too, but he seems to be making them for me. He probably thinks I am okay with it because I never complain or anything, but I don't because it is not in my place to and it would be very disrespectful. I don't know why he is doing this , but I think it has something to do with my mother...Maybe he thinks that since my mother died giving birth to me he want to save the last thing his wife gave to him...Oh well..I shouldn't be worrying , but this feeling of uneasiness just keeps nagging at me. I guess I'll go get some sleep now.