I feel like I am forcing myself to breathe right now. I can't shaking and crying.

Doesn't anyone hear my cry for fucking help?

Oh yeah, they do. But they don't understand.

I don't think I have ever gone shopping (clothes) so fast in my life! Aaron pointed out a dress and within 5minutes I was trying it on and I was in love. I have to get shoes yet, but it was pouring like a bitch so that's another day, hell I can do that while i'm gone. ( dress )

Opps. My bad. Happy Belated 20th to my girl Monica! :D

It's almost offical(we just have to make the phone call). I'm leaving Wednesday. USSB!! MONEY..TRAVELING...NEW PEOPLE...Wish me luck!?! (I'll try and post before I leave!) I'm nervous, but ready to take the next step. I know this will help me with my anxiety problems...Prove a hella lot to my ( Read more... )

Things are getting desperate. USSB has become the last resort. Meaning, I seriously just might be packing my shit in a few days for anywhere from 2weeks to a few months.

Last few days have been hella fun/crazy w/Aaron. I'm innocent. We are pathetic dorks.

I saw my old(we grew apart) best friend from middle school at the gas station at 4:am this ( Read more... )

Aaron is braiding my hair. :D

Today was eventful...enough said!! Tonight has been better though. I told my mom I was taking Aaron & I out to dinner and she goes "You're buying a sinner?" I was like "Why the hell would I do that? I'm already one!!!!" It was soo funny, okay, maybe you had to be there?! So, I took Aaron out to dinner with my last few dollars I have, lol. We went ( Read more... )

Many think i'm just hard headed, stubborn & I like to keeping pushing things to see what happens. Yeah, that's the way I am and i'm proud of that(haha). Many don't realize how hard it is for me to just even walk into a fucking store and deal with people. As much as I love meeting and dealing with differ people, I hate it 'cause it's such a struggle ( Read more... )

It's 4:am. I plan on sleeping the whole day tomorrow today!. I'm sick of all the hard work i've been putting in to get nowhere, i'm taking a break tomorrow today! Hell all these fuckers that can't get to know me to realize the fools they hired can be replaced easily by someone who actually does the work if they gave me a fucking chance ( Read more... )

I finally met, Melissa (Aaron's friend) today. She's sooo pretty, I hate her!

I did a perfect parking job today. I guess when you really put your mind to shit, YOU CAN DO IT! Also, I somehow drove into a slight water draining hole, I swear it jumped out infront of me!

Aaron: "You drive too slow!"
Me: "It's called doing the SPEED LIMIT!"

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Scratch my shit about that traveling thingy outta ya mind from my last post. Aaron & I took a drive to Kingston today to see if we could find their bus @ a hotel(lol). No luck. I did some more thinking on the way home. Still am. I don't think i'm down for it. Mainly b/c you have to pay $12 a night towards hotel room & most people make $150-200 a ( Read more... )