1/9/07

[littlegreyduck]

I feel really bad today

Comments

[dolor_and_decay]

Hey, it's Kangoshineko from DA. I'm really sorry that this is happening to you. I've struggled with depression too, ever since I was eleven, and I understand what a terrible feeling it is, especially when everyone around you is very negative. I hope that you do not seriously concider "vanishing" though. You're an amazing artist and a kind, good-hearted person, and there's not enough people like you in the world! <3

[littlegreyduck]

Hi Thanks for dropping by! No... I am NOT suicidal, and never have been. I am not that bad off. So no worries there. Thank you for the kind words... I just get really down! And I HAVE to express myself, or I will just explode!!!!!! But you know, now do you see why I like making art more to channel these feelings? Words make me so vulnerable! It scares me to talk so openly about feelings... I never know what people will think... Why should I care, right?

How do I friend you here?... I don't know a lot about LJ... And what do I call you? Kangoshineko is a lot to type! Would it be okay if I friend you here at lj?

[dolor_and_decay]

Just cal me Lexi. :3 <3 And I friendeded you yeay!

[pirateboots]

and I wholeheartedly second that!

[pirateboots]

I'm really glad you wrote this in your journal. :) It really needed to be written. Unfortunately, it seems like there are more and more stereotypes. Especially emo, of course. ( I have a friend whose bangs go just a little of her eyes, and she gets called emo all the time. AND it's a litgt coppery color.)

Maybe...you should find something new. Do something new. And exciting. And don't worry about the people that criticize without thinking! Someday, it is more than likely they'll expierience some kind of depression and will be able to understand others better.

[littlegreyduck]

Thank you pirateboots for your support and for listening! It means a lot! (((((PB))))))

[oneandonlyd]

You know what?
You ARE lucky, my friend.
S is there, and she gets it, can make you laugh etc...plus, you have talent.
Imagine me trying to express or vent my feelings through art.
Stick people on parade would be what would happen there.
I know how you feel re: friends only wanting to be around when you are entertaining. I get it.
I dunno who all reads this *your LJ* so lemme say, I am NOT mad or anything...but you ever notice in my blog over there, if it is not a funny story but something serious, how people vanish?
It doesn't make me angry; but it does make me feel even more alone.
(((duck)))

[littlegreyduck]

Yes I have noticed that D. Do you notice How I rarely respond directly to what your initial entry is? I hope that does not offend you. But I don't get it a lot of times, so I just join in the commenting part. I think your strength is in the commenting and joking part. I think others who have known you longer probably *get* the stuff I am not understanding... But that is okay if I don't get it all the time. You are my friend regardless and I don't care what you feel like, I am not abandoning ya. I have been abandoning df for at least 2 weeks... I am working on my art, spending time at home offline more, I am not leaving by ANY stretch of the imagination... I just go through spells where I am on constantly and then off for a while. That is just ME. Have you noticed cat has really been absent too?
You never need feel alone, with me around. Just pm, email, MSN, or whatever. We can laugh together, or whatever. (((((((D)))))))

[oneandonlyd]

Yes I have noticed that...I do the same thing as well.
I think we all do.
So glad you are feeling better.
*still waking up*
Guess I need to go check out the dA page....I have not been there in awhile
TTYS my friend.

[littlegreyduck]

Thanks D!!!! I thought I was the only one!