so i woke up....and i am so fucking pissed off.....why......why fucking everything...i just want it all to end...no more broken hearts no more goodbyes....no more anything...why did i wake up...what is left for me....nothing...i have work today.....and i don't even want to be alive......the last few days have been so shitty and the day before that ( Read more... )

everything is pointless ( Read more... )

i wish i would just die...i have nothing...nothing...no one...i have been so upset tonight and i have no where to go and no one to go to....i am alone....and really upset.....i hope i don't wake up tomorrow....seriously...i will be so pissed if i do.....i don't get why people who are so miserable have to live....."god" makes them suffer.....thats ( Read more... )

so the last few days have been interesting.....I have been talking lots with dara and it's been really good....like i haven't really had a good conversation with anyone for a long time and we have been talking for hours at a time...about everything...shit we are going through and shit that is going on around us....today was my last day of exams...i ( Read more... )

So today was my last day of school....no more high school life...i have exams tomorrow and friday and then all done....today in school showed how much i want to get out and how gay people/teachers really are....can't even cut me some slack on my last day....whatever....so people were driving like assholes today...thanks i love it....i love when ( Read more... )

It's late in the evening
She's wondering what clothes to wear
She puts on her make up
And brushes her long blonde hair
And then she asks me
Do I look alright
And I say yes, you look wonderful tonight

We go a party
And everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady
That's walking around with me
And then she asks me
Do you feel alright
And I say yes, I feel wonderful ( Read more... )

so this weekend was amazing...i was very nervous that i would be miserable and hate every moment......i also thought being around john would make me feel like crap because he would be there but out of reach...but he wasn't i held him in my little arms and slaped his ass....haha....yo i hit that shit....prom was nice.....my date was the hottest one ( Read more... )

i can't stop thinking about you and how i want you here with me.....is this suppose to hurt this bad??? today some said i should forget about you and i told them they don't what its like to love someone.....i will always be here no matter how hard you try to push me away.....I LOVE YOU....forever and always.....

my nose hurts and my eyes burn......i gave my heart out to you again....and you broke it....i can't believe i let you.....it hurts just as bad if not worse...i believed you and everything you said to me...now i relize it was just a lie.....why won't you let me try again......why did you even call me...i was doing ok you know....i was just about to ( Read more... )

Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill ( Read more... )