i feel like such a fucking liar.

 But when it rains
it pours..

It's strange to think that in such a short amount of time I will be leaving for college.  I know that most people say that 9 months is an eternity.  But it truth, it truly isn't.  Nine months could be  a time well spent, getting to know the people around you more in depth, getting to know yourself more in depth, or just focusing on something that ( Read more... )

I really really really hate the way that he thinks that i'm just going to fall for his stupid lines and pet names again.  Actually I kind of like it.. because I know that now that I have a spine when it comes to him.. I'm not going to get hurt like I did before.  I mean.. we were close before and I liked him so much and he hurt me so bad.. for no ( Read more... )

So today could quite possibly be the worst day ever. I seriously cannot stand my dad anymore and i cry all the time over him. I don't understand why its so hard to be a dad.. Pay your child support come to a few cheer competitions and dance recitals.. that's it. not hard. My mom has been to every single one of them.. and he somehow cannot make ( Read more... )

So I really don't know what I want.  Because I know that i have never been inlove with anyone in my life but i know for sure that i did love this boy and i mean it kills to know that something happened between him and someone else before it happened between him and I.  I mean we're not together or anything and I don't know if it will even happen ( Read more... )

well i decided to update because.. well i guess i just decided to.  nothing really has been going on.  working a lot.. working at molly and rj's.  which is so much more fun now.. i definitely love all of those girls.  also cheerleading.. which i guess is.. sweet.  the team is kind of bothering me.. which makes me not want to go anymore.. but i ( Read more... )

She thank God for everything that boy did for her.
She thanked him for letting that boy put her in her place.
And she thanked God for letting him yell at her.
But Mostly for picking her up when she fell.
    -- by me.

It's a damn shame someone can walk out of a girls life.. 
like there was never any feelings between them.. ever.

And A request.  does ( Read more... )

So It's been forever since I've updated this thing.  I don't even know if anyone still reads it.  But I decided to update for the sake of updating.  So cheers to anyone who actually reads it ( Read more... )

Thank God its break.  I'm So Excited!  It's Finally Here.

Today I was not having a good day.  Because  I won't lie.. I just havn't been in the Christmas Spirit this year.  I don't really know why.  Maybe its because I've doubted my faith A lot.  I don't know.

Then in Third Hour.. Vukovich came up to me and gave me just about the best present i' ( Read more... )