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Last night I got drunk off of four glasses of beer. NO not pints, glasses. Thats right. I was at paslyamany and it was fun. Me and Erin May made fun drawings. Adrienne played very good music that made me feel all tingly and relaxed(no it wasnt the beer, it was definatly the music ( Read more... )

This is where I am - Montreal ( Read more... )

I just got off the phone with D not too long ago and we talked for a long time. It was good cuz we like talked about everything. I like how we know eachother so well so I can just tell her exactly how i'm feeling and she doesn't feel weird about it. I am so excited to see her. she kept wanted to talk about all the fun things we'll do when i get ( Read more... )

I want to leave. I am sick of community drama or whatever you wan to call it. He said she said bull shit. I have no appetite and I havent been sleeping very much. I feel good though, cuz I have all this energy and I'm working my ass off so I can get out of this crazy town for a while ( Read more... )

O.k. I love being my manic self. I'm back to old me since I'm off the antidepressants. Its good. Last night I hung out with andrienne and mike b. Its cool too hang out with them and It also makes me sad cuz it reminds me of back in the day and then I miss Brad. I'm sure they feel the same way too. Its hard but its good to be around them cuz we ( Read more... )

I feel shitty and anxious. I feel like I never do anything. Right now I'm listening to my neighbors yell at eachother. I have been having a constant anxiety attack for the last few days and I feel like I have no friends. I hate it when I feel this way. I want to go to Calgary and I am broke. Shit.

So I've been thinking lots about friends lately and "having someones back". Awhile ago my friend Adrienne asked me what I thought it meant to to have someones back. I feel like its being there for poeple when you say you are. And I mean like actually being there, like listening to where the persons at and checking in lots. And if you know the ( Read more... )

So I was walking home from Adrienns party on saturday morning and I had some intence realisations about my life. I was feeling really fucking alone and I was like holy shit, I'm not doing anything with my life because I've gotten myself into a really shitty cycle that I guess started almost three years ago. Trauma happenned and I was depressed ( Read more... )

I am so not o.k.