I am finally seeing why I was the one worth leaving.

Funny how the person who left all that bullshit on my previous entry wasn't even there that night. Thank you for causing all this drama and then saying I was trying to cause it.

Sophmore Party- don't know what to think about it.

My arm is infested with ant bites.

I have never felt so betrayed in my life, by my own friend, actually my own supposed best friend. Never felt this hurt. How can you say I messed everything up for you. How do you think I feel.. Being called a rebound girl behind my back, saying that I come on to you when you beg me to stay at your house so you don't have to be alone. Making up ( Read more... )

fuck you serioulsy fuck you.. i can't fucking believe that you said that to me... i have never like anyone like i liked you and you know that.

" I was born the day you kissed me, I died inside the night you left me, but I live, oh how i live, while you love me."

This weekend was by far one of the most fun in awhile. Saturday night.. oh man, so much fun. I was really happy that night and it's a change from my usual mood. Thanks boys and lillian and katie and kat for some of the night.

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im sorry for everything. sorry im a bitch and fuck everything up for everyone. sorry matt.
im sorry to everyone. im just so sorry.

I can't pretend this doesn't kill me. Especially seeing ya'll together.. it's whats getting me the most.

I can't pretend that I don't cry every day at school and after school at theatre and at my house at nights.

I just can't pretend anymore. I DO NOT want your pity that's why you think I'm ok about all this. I don't want you to feel sorry for me ( Read more... )

" And I got outside and take a deep breath and get high and scream, what the hell is going on??"

Currently all that goes through my head is .." I can't believe this, what the hell." How could he throw us away so abruptly. I talked about this for awhile with Bethany last night and she made me feel better. I love her. She said a lot of shit that ( Read more... )

We broke up. He loves someone else and I can't help that. It just sucks that he's my best friend and I have to be happy for him but at the same time I'm overwhelmed with sadness because we were perfect for each other. I just don't get it and I'm so tired of being 2nd best to everyone. It's bad enough that I have such a hard time getting over guys ( Read more... )