Doubt kills.
"Yah Doojoon-hyung! Stop! It tickles~Eh, go away before Junnie gets annoyed~!" Yoseob giggled endlessly at the sly fingers tickling him while they sat waiting for their turn to perform. Dongwoon was sitting upright, watching 4minute's performance on the t.v. Hyunseung sat beside Dongwoon, staring worriedly into the mirror, directly at the giggly pair. Junhyung, clutching his can of coke, glared at Doojoon. And Kikwang, all he did was stare at his boyfriend tickling another member as if he was his boyfriend.
"Seobie, don't worry. We're just playing!"
'Huh. Playing? Is that what they call flirting now?' These were the thoughts of Kikwang. No longer did the emotion anger come in anymore. Whenever an argument involving Yoseob was put in, Doojoon never once sought out to apologize about his actions. But no matter what happened, no matter how hard he had fought, he, Lee Kikwang, was the one who ended up apologizing.
All the members, including Yang Yoseob himself, could see how this was all affecting their Kiki. It isn't an unknown fact that Doojoon still has feelings for Yoseob, even if Doojoon has been together with Kikwang for a year. Doojoon, sensing his boyfriend's stare, looked at Kikwang and smiled ever so slightly. 'As if saying sorry?' Kikwang wondered. But no, it was as if he was saying, 'Thanks'. Kikwang couldn't smile back, 'Hyung..when will you say, 'I love you?'.
Kikwang couldn't bear the stares of Dongwoon, Hyunseung, and now Junhyung as he (tried so hard) to ignore Doojoon and Yoseob. He didn't want to be the center of pity, he already stood up for himself and his relationship with Doojoon. 'Why can't the members help, instead of look?!' Suddenly, his least favorite emotion came back. A powerful surge of anger swept through Kikwang and he couldn't breathe in the overly tense room. "Fuck."
'Thud'
'Bam'
Everyone in the room was startled. Yoseob and Doojoon finally turned their heads toward Kikwang when they heard his ruckus. Kikwang, with his head down, muttered some incoherent words before turning away. He kicked the chair away, grabbed his coat, and walked out the door; fists still clenched and stance still rigid. The echo of the slammed door left a negative tingling in all of their stomachs.
Hyunseung discontinued his sitting and staring. Now he was gaping at Doojoon, who looked like a confused puppy. "What the hell Doojoon?! Are you just going to sit there? Kikwang..go to him, he needs you!"
Doojoon flnched but had yet to make a move, "Wh..a?"
"It means to stop being an asshole. Stop flirting with my boyfriend. And get the fuck up." Was Junhyung's only reply to him.
After Junhyung's remark, Doojoon came to his senses and immediately stood up. He was confused and worried. He was just joking around with Yoseob, 'Doesn't anyone know that?'. The leader of Beast frantically circled the room, grabbing his phone and jacket, muttering his concerns for his lover. 'He..where could he go? It's snowing out there..!'
"Doojoon.," Whirling around, Doojoon came face to face with Yoseob, "You need to fix all of this. Kikwang is sensitive and you need to show him..tell him how much YOU love HIM."
"Yeah I will." But everyone in the room were still worried, the tingling feeling still lingered within their stomachs. Doojoon trying with all his might to get rid of it, opened the door..just as he heard it.
All that was heard was a scream and a call for help. Doojoon sprinted towards the two doors that would lead to the outside, to the now accident. The other 4 members jumped to their feet and followed their leader. The remaining five members now were accompanied with body-racking chills as they neared the accident outside their building. Each and every one of them couldn't believe the sight that greeted them.
Because there was Kikwang. Laying on the floor, lifeless, bloody, pale. "Oh my god..Kiki.." Kneeling, the lifeless form's lover took him in his arms and sobbed. Sobbed for everything that could've been and now will never be.
-2 hours later-
"I'm sorry. Dead on the scene."
Doojoon's life had never been so black before. He made a mistake. Now he can't fix what could've been and what will never be. Doojoon wiped the tears from Kikwang's face but couldn't stop his own from falling onto his lover's face. Every drip that fell from his eyes sucked out the life force out of Doojoon. He took for granted what was in front of him and never said thank you back. Doojoon leaned his face forward and kissed Kikwang one last time.
"Kikwang..Mianhe. Mianhe. Mianhe. Mianhe. Saranghae. Saranghae Ki..kw..ang. I'm sorry, so please come back to me. Kiki! I'm sorry, I never told you..Ki..kwa ..ngh, I'm sorry.."
Doojoon apologized over and over because the words Kikwang uttered before he left the room, was only heard by him, "Is it possible for love to hurt?"
"Seobie, don't worry. We're just playing!"
'Huh. Playing? Is that what they call flirting now?' These were the thoughts of Kikwang. No longer did the emotion anger come in anymore. Whenever an argument involving Yoseob was put in, Doojoon never once sought out to apologize about his actions. But no matter what happened, no matter how hard he had fought, he, Lee Kikwang, was the one who ended up apologizing.
All the members, including Yang Yoseob himself, could see how this was all affecting their Kiki. It isn't an unknown fact that Doojoon still has feelings for Yoseob, even if Doojoon has been together with Kikwang for a year. Doojoon, sensing his boyfriend's stare, looked at Kikwang and smiled ever so slightly. 'As if saying sorry?' Kikwang wondered. But no, it was as if he was saying, 'Thanks'. Kikwang couldn't smile back, 'Hyung..when will you say, 'I love you?'.
Kikwang couldn't bear the stares of Dongwoon, Hyunseung, and now Junhyung as he (tried so hard) to ignore Doojoon and Yoseob. He didn't want to be the center of pity, he already stood up for himself and his relationship with Doojoon. 'Why can't the members help, instead of look?!' Suddenly, his least favorite emotion came back. A powerful surge of anger swept through Kikwang and he couldn't breathe in the overly tense room. "Fuck."
'Thud'
'Bam'
Everyone in the room was startled. Yoseob and Doojoon finally turned their heads toward Kikwang when they heard his ruckus. Kikwang, with his head down, muttered some incoherent words before turning away. He kicked the chair away, grabbed his coat, and walked out the door; fists still clenched and stance still rigid. The echo of the slammed door left a negative tingling in all of their stomachs.
Hyunseung discontinued his sitting and staring. Now he was gaping at Doojoon, who looked like a confused puppy. "What the hell Doojoon?! Are you just going to sit there? Kikwang..go to him, he needs you!"
Doojoon flnched but had yet to make a move, "Wh..a?"
"It means to stop being an asshole. Stop flirting with my boyfriend. And get the fuck up." Was Junhyung's only reply to him.
After Junhyung's remark, Doojoon came to his senses and immediately stood up. He was confused and worried. He was just joking around with Yoseob, 'Doesn't anyone know that?'. The leader of Beast frantically circled the room, grabbing his phone and jacket, muttering his concerns for his lover. 'He..where could he go? It's snowing out there..!'
"Doojoon.," Whirling around, Doojoon came face to face with Yoseob, "You need to fix all of this. Kikwang is sensitive and you need to show him..tell him how much YOU love HIM."
"Yeah I will." But everyone in the room were still worried, the tingling feeling still lingered within their stomachs. Doojoon trying with all his might to get rid of it, opened the door..just as he heard it.
All that was heard was a scream and a call for help. Doojoon sprinted towards the two doors that would lead to the outside, to the now accident. The other 4 members jumped to their feet and followed their leader. The remaining five members now were accompanied with body-racking chills as they neared the accident outside their building. Each and every one of them couldn't believe the sight that greeted them.
Because there was Kikwang. Laying on the floor, lifeless, bloody, pale. "Oh my god..Kiki.." Kneeling, the lifeless form's lover took him in his arms and sobbed. Sobbed for everything that could've been and now will never be.
-2 hours later-
"I'm sorry. Dead on the scene."
Doojoon's life had never been so black before. He made a mistake. Now he can't fix what could've been and what will never be. Doojoon wiped the tears from Kikwang's face but couldn't stop his own from falling onto his lover's face. Every drip that fell from his eyes sucked out the life force out of Doojoon. He took for granted what was in front of him and never said thank you back. Doojoon leaned his face forward and kissed Kikwang one last time.
"Kikwang..Mianhe. Mianhe. Mianhe. Mianhe. Saranghae. Saranghae Ki..kw..ang. I'm sorry, so please come back to me. Kiki! I'm sorry, I never told you..Ki..kwa ..ngh, I'm sorry.."
Doojoon apologized over and over because the words Kikwang uttered before he left the room, was only heard by him, "Is it possible for love to hurt?"