Suicide note.

[littlerobots]

Dear God

Comments

[shavemylegspls]

im going to put on my brass knuckles and punch you in the face.

erase this shit now.
suicide i have always believed is a way out for the weak.
and a selfish attempt at that.

so once again, erase it.
there are too many people who love you, and it pains me to think this is how you really feel.

im praying you just copied it from somewhere..

[stalktheground]

I wrote a somewhat long response to this but it got deleted because the internet is whack like that. anyway, I had this whole long paragraph about dealing with that overwhelming weight of expectations you have of yourself or that others may have of you, and it was really awesome and inspiring and great... so I typically managed to somehow accidentally delete it

[shavemylegspls]

i was referring to suicide itself. not the expectations we feel we need to fill [we ALL feel that], or about being utterly alone. but suicide. the thought of ending your life COMPLETELY.
think about it from an outside perspective, no matter how much termoil a person is going through, they obviously are not thinking about the other people that love them or who they are leaving behind to grieve. family members or best friends who would spend the rest of their lives wondering why.

ive already had a conversation with her, and although its not really a suicide note and just an outlet for her feelings i took it literally. like.."goodbye world". and tomorrow i would get a phone call from her family telling me the ONE person i can completely confide in, my future maid of honor is dead. dont sit there and say its not a selfish action, when it is.

[stalktheground]

I'm not saying I don't know where you're coming from, I definitely do... I just kinda think that telling people who are meditating on the idea of suicide that they are selfish isn't going to make them feel any less suicidal. I just think there are different ways of supporting people. I definitely didn't mean to intrude or anything or pretend to know more than I do about fab or your friendship with her than I actually do, because I really dont know anything. I'm just trying to offer a different perspective, didn't mean to interrupt! sorry =). much respect!

[littlerobots]

the thing is, i was thinking about the people i love and i think every person who commits suicide thinks about the people who loves them but at that moment it really doesnt matter. nothing matters except for getting rid of the black sheet that has covered your body and is suffocating you. im not suicidal, at least not at this second. but sometimes, its just really hard to breath and i had to express these terrible thoughts that took over my brain.

Suicide does one thing, it helps that person escape from hell. and lets face it, i doubt the majority of the population who actually kills themselves believes in hell. its just too complicated to explain.

I love you katie, even though you left me for chico. ;] I just need you back home soon, and knowing that youll be here will be wonderful. Ill buys us a bottle of wine, or two since im an alcoholic and well catch up and make love and blah blah. <3

[smashmortion]

i'm feeling the exact same way you are right now. i think all you can really do is get away from everything, isolate yourself and give yourself some time. good luck fab, if you ever need to talk about anything, i'm here.

[barplarmonster]

i knwo we don't talk anymore and i rarely look at this shit, but its all in your hands