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I'm bored so you all get a post. And I don't mean bored as in right now I have nothing to do, I mean just with writing in general.
I used to be excited about writing and tagging. Now...I'm bored. It's like, everything is the same as always. Same thing all the time. I can't think of any one new to app in TR, mainly because I'm afraid of the application process and I don't know if there is anyone I want that badly. I tried joining another game, but I felt so out of place that I had to drop. I know I should think of a plot to do, but that's the problem! I can't think of anything! I realize I should tag other people more, but I feel a bit jaded (that it will just be the same old threads) as well which isn't helping.
Don't even get me started on fic. I have outlines of fic waiting to be written but just no desire to actually do it.
I feel like TR is all I have. I don't really have any RP partners anymore to do anything outside of it. Or the ones I might have I don't want to bother because I know they do have other RP partners and I don't want to be annoying. And I haven't found another game where I'd feel comfortable. I was looking through a friend's RP journal to the comms it was in and saw all the things she was doing and I felt so sad and jealous that it hurt. I wish I could say this was stress related to upcoming school but I really don't think it is. I was in the middle of this slump before I applied to UCF.
I want something to get excited about. Something I can't wait to get to my computer to write about. Tags that I have to do from my Blackberry because they can't wait until I get home. I want e-mail logs that are canon or AU that are just fun. I haven't felt that feeling in a while and I want it back goddammit! I just don't even know where to look anymore. And yes, I feel as pathetic as this all sounds thanks.
Help? Please? I'm desperate at this point...
I used to be excited about writing and tagging. Now...I'm bored. It's like, everything is the same as always. Same thing all the time. I can't think of any one new to app in TR, mainly because I'm afraid of the application process and I don't know if there is anyone I want that badly. I tried joining another game, but I felt so out of place that I had to drop. I know I should think of a plot to do, but that's the problem! I can't think of anything! I realize I should tag other people more, but I feel a bit jaded (that it will just be the same old threads) as well which isn't helping.
Don't even get me started on fic. I have outlines of fic waiting to be written but just no desire to actually do it.
I feel like TR is all I have. I don't really have any RP partners anymore to do anything outside of it. Or the ones I might have I don't want to bother because I know they do have other RP partners and I don't want to be annoying. And I haven't found another game where I'd feel comfortable. I was looking through a friend's RP journal to the comms it was in and saw all the things she was doing and I felt so sad and jealous that it hurt. I wish I could say this was stress related to upcoming school but I really don't think it is. I was in the middle of this slump before I applied to UCF.
I want something to get excited about. Something I can't wait to get to my computer to write about. Tags that I have to do from my Blackberry because they can't wait until I get home. I want e-mail logs that are canon or AU that are just fun. I haven't felt that feeling in a while and I want it back goddammit! I just don't even know where to look anymore. And yes, I feel as pathetic as this all sounds thanks.
Help? Please? I'm desperate at this point...