all i can say is fuck....im sooo confuesed...i think about stuff and i think i have the answer...THEN WAP....FUCK!!...i dont im sooooo confused and im in a lose lose situation and thats fucked....i really need to get my shit together..............ffuucckkk

soo.....im very conflicted ...bout everything...i have very mised emotions and i dont have the first clue what to do...i know what i want to do..but i dunno....im a very weird person when it comes to relationships and im already weirdin myself out....EEEHHHH.....didnt do anything today...skated ...got a new board yesterday.....didnt hangout with ( Read more... )

HOPE I LOVE YOU..YOU BETTER NOT LOVE SHAUN MORE THAM ME!!!IM SORRY WE DIDNT HANG OUT BUT YOU KNOW HOW THE WHOLE JON AND LOP THING IS ...HOPEFULLY THE "PLAN" FOR SATURDAY HAVENT CHANGED ...UMM....GOT DRUNK IT WAS FUN.....BUT ALL I CAN SAY ..IS I LOVE HOPE AND I MISSED YA TODAY BAEE....LOVE YOU VERY MUCH>3>3>3>3 .....LOVE YOU BABE HOPE YOUR NOT MAD

today was very boring ..second day in a row we had off school....EEHH....i drew like all day...played some music wit jon in the evening and talked to hope on the phone for ever!!...i love my hopester....im still very conflicted about alot certain people know these issues...but none the less im happy...very happy.....out

me and hope had a dicussion last night and cleared everything up...IM SO HAPPY BOUT THAT!!!....umm.... im more conufsed about the situations going on in my life than ever..all i really know is that i have alot of tricks to film!!!...ummmm...yea me and hope are fine again thata the main thing......i love her...i realized alot of things that past ( Read more... )

today...got up at 8 am...ehhh.....woke up *ori* ..then went to wake up jon...(had to him him in the face with a "kabage patch kid"i didnt spell that right but oh well... we went to hopes dance comp....THEY RULED ALL!!!....umm last night i opened up to *ori* jeezz im letin all these people in and im not sure if i like it or not...but i talked to her ( Read more... )

i have mixed feelings bout the day...hung wit hope from 10 am - 11pm...that was fun....some times better than others but none the less fun....went to lil itly wit jon and her....we had some deep discussion bout some things i dot normally talk about..so after that...i started to think..about everything....ive decided that im happy with some things ( Read more... )

damn tonight was super fun!! i woke *ori* up when i called her.....me, tj, lop, and jon all went out and we stole mad shit for "the spot" we gettin the session goin over there tomm thats gonna be fun....im goin home with hope after school tomm....ot hang out ad stuff that will also have its pleaures....ohh man tonight was so fun i got back one of ( Read more... )

hmm... school went by fast once again and we have a halkf day tomm..WHOOO...me and hope are supposed to chill sometime tomm...i dunno whats gonna come of that...nothin but good im sure....ummm...i ate pizza and got sick...EH.....built more stuff in the tennis courts ...its soo fuckin awesome ..i decided not to quit skating...im jsut sort of going ( Read more... )

today......today....school went by very quick.....i slept for like and hour in 2nd period cause we watched chicago ...and i was like" NAH" ..hmmm....nothin really happened in 3rd period....i added some stuf to my sponsor tape.....4th period i saw *ori* and got my kisses and all that sweet sruff...:).....then i met hope and walked with her and got ( Read more... )